It was an usual morning with nothing so new
I woke up with a notification that bloomed my heart
Like a soaked dry leaf with morning dew.
The feelings that were dead and turned
into ashes with the course of time,
They rose again like embers,
Kindling the forlorn flames of you.
This kept me engaged throughout the day
Wondering what made you remember me,
Years after disowning in dismay.
You asked me, how had I been?
As if nothing ever happened between us
Perplexing me, how could people be so forgetful and mean?
I don't feel for you anymore, but I don't hate you either,
For I know you never loved me truly,
Yet my selfless love has somewhere etched your heart forever.
I replied, merrily because I have moved on,
But honestly, a part of me is still covalescing
From your memories of lovelorn.
Taking me to the trails of the moments we spent together
I often crave to see you, wishing you were near.
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I would live a life like there's no tomorrow,
For I would be in your arms forgetting all my sorrows,
Indulging myself completely in your sweet surrender
I'd let my heart take over not letting the mind hinder.
I would set my desires free and not fantasies hide
Canoodling in your embrace I would love
To have your fervent bite.
Breaking all the shackles of societal norms,
I would only relish your debonair charm.
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Is having feelings...
It's one of the worst demons we possess,
Compelling us to feel about people and confess,
Despite knowing it would just lead to a catastrophic future one day,
It instills in us expectations, emotions, attachments and more day by day.
Although tough but it needs to be controlled,
To attain our inner peace and save ourselves
Before it engulfs our entire existence in whole.
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Real identity.
(Continuation of part 2)
And I met the stranger again.-
The roses that you gave as a token of your love
Has withered away with time just like your love
Yet, I have kept them safely in the closed pages of my heart
Just for the forlorn and intense love for thee.
The thorns often prick my soul
Bleeding with your memories
Yet I love the pain,
For my heart is still entwined with you
And my love for you still remains.-
In the journey of life I've learned a lesson
Never get attached to people
As it leads to nothing but inner destruction
I choose to not get entwined
Before the affection and longings blend..
I choose detachment before my heart goes
To an uncontrollable extent.
For the echoes of my past have given me a vision so clear,
To maintain distance from people rather keeping them near,
Hence I refrain myself from getting entangled
With the threads of affection
And I've mastered the art of being unaffected
Detaching myself in no time...
From people's facade of attention.
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You stop bothering about people's assessments and judgements about you.
When you start enjoying your own company loving and prioritizing yourself.
When detached yourself completely from the world , that hampers and ruins your inner peace.-
He was the most favourite student of tenth grade. His charm , intelligence and enigmatic personality raised jealousy among a lot of his batch boys.
His happiness had no bounds receiving so much love and attention from everyone.
But it was all short lived, when on the day of his graduation from the school, he came out from the closet of his real identity.
Everyone was dumbstruck hearing his revelation and distanced themselves from him.
When he said that, he was a queer, trapped in the closet of societal norms and social stigma.
Wishing to be free from his trapped identity and yet being loved and accepted by all.-
Yearning for you more
For, I still remember your stolen fervent kiss,
Pinning me against the wall.
Intoxicated with your presence
I was high in your charm,
I miss that sultry moonlit night,
When I was completely lost in your arms.
Those stolen kisses and fervent caresses
Still lingers in my mind and all senses.
I wish that moment was a little longer
To kiss you, whispering my desires
And let myself lose to you a little more, kindling your inner fire.
I hide my passionate cravings for you each night,
Unclasping my coyness in your embrace.
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