Every now and then
Everything feels lovely...
Falling in love with everything
The blood on open wounds
Are slowly getting harder
And turning brown to skin...
The eyes are slowly getting back
It's shine and crying less.
Eyes along with lips are smiling
Slowly the love for herself
Is maddening day by day...
And slowly with time
She has healed...
Someone messages is again
Making her smile...
Still afraid to fall in love again
But !!!
" Dil kya kare jab kisiko
Kissise pyar ho jaye...."
As said by Kishore Kumar...

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This long night is never ending
The memories are flashing
Beautiful moments that we shared
The intimacy of our first touch,
When I kept my hands on your shoulder...
The intimacy of our first eye contacts
First conversation and our first meet ,
Is just running like a documentary
In front of my eyes...
My lap feels empty remembering
Your head on them, with arms around me ,
Your closed eyes and calm face
And my fingers roaming around in your hairs
Is what Make me crave for you more...
In That moment of silence,
Your breaths and heartbeat is
The kind of disturbance I wanna hear all day.
This wait is restless but
Wanna see the next day with you...

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Collected everything...
All those photos , letters, gifts
From you and also those
made by me for you ,
In a old rock tub
At the back of the house
Near the red veranda,
Poured gaslight on them
And a little ignited match stick
And there it is in fire...
Yes I burnt those memories of you
In fire and no intention of controlling
Those rising flames and smoke...
I sit down on the veranda on my chair
With the glass of cold lemonade
Seeing that fire engulfing you...
In a blink of an eye
All memories has vanished...
Ashes are cleared and
The tub is cleaned again as new as before...

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I smell like you
My lips tastes like you
And you and only you
Is what runs
In my mind....

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Far from my reach
Look beautiful from distance away
But when reality hits
You are just as decisive as
Craters on moon....
But you are cool

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To open my arms
And let you in
Everytime you come back to me
After you left me hurt....
But soon the wound was left
Untreated and open...
It became deep and deeper
Till it was beyond repair...
So of now the heart and the brain
Work together.
The previous one is always ready to forgive
While the later gives her the reality check...
Even if it hurts, it says
You are yours
But he was not yours...

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Is it okay
To love someone
Who hates you ?

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Everything here is empty
Just silent and I am deaf....
Nothing comes crawling to me,
To my bed ,
To comfort me when I am busy ,
Drenching my pillow with tears...
Those warm lava flowing down
From corner of my eyes
Down to the edge of my nose
And vanishing in the tangles of hairs...
The emptiness and the silence
Is bright and loud...
And I am both blind and deaf...

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Come back to me...
I am still waiting here
For you
On the white porch of the blue house,
On the wooden chair crafted by you...
No matter what you do
I am still yours...
But if you want me anymore
I will always wish to disappear.
Remembering your words
"It was a mistake in first place."
I will take my leave...

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आज फिर से उस गली से गुजरना पड़ा
और फिर से तुम्हारी यादों के धागे खिंच गई।
हमारा छुप छुप के समंदर के किनारे मिलना
और तुम्हारे साथ बिताये हुए वो दो घंटे।
तुम्हारी पसंद कि पीली साडी में
अपने आप को सजाना ,
और तुम से मिलने की खुशी
मेरी आंखों का काजल और
होठों की लाली बन जाती थी।
वो लहरों की आवाज़
वह गर्म मुलायम रेत ,
और मैं तुम्हारे बाहों में,
तुम्हारी दिल की धड़कन सुनती हुई।
तुम्हारी वो गंगुराम कि रसमलाई
मेरे बालों में गजरा लगाना
और उस कोरे कागज़ पे लिखा हुआ
तुम्हारे प्रेम कविता पढ़के सुनाना
और तुम्हारे आंखों में मेरा खोजना।

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