the world has become living worthy again
i just have to earn the food
earn my breath here
nothing's for free
i guess in an alien it would be
i hope that they havent made everything a barter system
if i see an orchard i hope I'll be able to eat the fruit without anyone's permission
i hope that if i walk for a thousand miles i wont be stopped by barbed wires
when i look up i wanna be thankful
cause yet the sky is free to watch
someday they'll even say the clouds belong to them
the sky to someone else
and I'll just be forced to wear an opaque glass on my eyes
or they'll permanently fix my neck to look down
maybe I'll have to pay for ghe air i breathe
even though I'm already paying for my stomach
some people will have taken the whole world from us just because they had heaps of some extraordinary paper
they'll buy the sun, and maybe they'll send the cloud at us
maybe they'll wipe us out in a wave
and then i hope there's a alien planet

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life
has
become
a tale
of
sad
things

-

i love where i have been exiled to
i love this lonely uninhabited sadness
forever my sad place
forever here, i stay
hear waves thrash
hear birds sing
see all the beauty for what it is

-

don't
rely on the potential
that someday somehow
i'll start to love you
i won't
i can't
i don't see myself

as i watch you making
the same mistakes
that i've made last year
all i feel for you is
sorry.

don't wait for me
i will never fall for you

-

i'm sorry
i take things lightly
these days;
i cannot fathom the feelings
you feel for me
because once i was
misunderstood
for all that i felt

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sometime in early december '21

this big invisible impossible force
that's separating us
for what reason i shall know soon

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june 11th 2022

it's been seven months now
longer than we ever were together
and yet it all comes back
it never left is all i can say

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june 9th 2022

to love someone
and to get loved by
someone else

-

what do i want
what do i need
whom do i take
whom do i leave

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These Days

I don't mind anything anymore
you could send your sharpest dagger to cut holes in me
you could convince the earth to ooze out lava in my path
you could request the sky to throw burning asteroids at me
and I would still walk with a smile
whatever has happened, whatever can happen
I accepted it, I will welcome it
bring it on
I'm not the one anymore not familiar with pain
burning flesh or getting buried alive
I think I know it all
for what is life if not mind-twisting
the more they shock me
the more surprises I'm gonna have
I don't mind anything at all.

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