I know he loved me but
not the way I want to,
Only the way he want to.
He never able to recognize my inside,
He was too busy to thrill me and
I was too busy to accompanied him.
He kept pushing me to love him but
He failed to feel my love for him.
He was able to perceived my fake smile but
He was unable to perceived my thousand of miseries.
He only conveyed his body to love me but
He never conveyed his soul to do the same,
And I was fucking die to give my everything.
Difference is he never gave but I felt
and I gave but he never felt.

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বেয়া পাও নিজৰ সপোনবোৰৰ বোজা মা-দেউতাৰ কান্ধত তুলি দিবলৈ । পাৰিলে নিজেই পূৰাম নোৱাৰিলে সেইবোৰকে সংগী কৰি জীৱনৰ শেষ দিনটোলৈ আগবাঢ়িম । সপোন শব্দটি বহুত সৰু যেন লাগে কিন্ত তাতেই মোৰ সমস্ত পৃথৱীখন । সকলো সহ্য কৰিছো এই সপোনবোৰক বাস্তৱ কৰিবলৈ, কৰোবাত সাৰ্থক হৈছে যদি কৰোবাত বিফলতাও দেখিছো কিন্ত যিমানে হাৰ মানি লৈছো সিমানেই নতুন সপোন জাগিব ধৰিছে । ভয় ও লাগিছে কিয়নো মা-দেউতায়ে মোৰ এই নিস্তদ্ধ সপোনবোৰ পূৰাব নোৱাৰিব আৰু চাগে মই তেওলোকক কব ও নোৱাৰিম । কাৰন আমি হেনো মধ্যবিত্ত , সৰুৰে পৰা মোক তেওলোকে মোৰ প্ৰয়োজনীয়তাত অধিক গুৰুত্ব দিছে । লাগিলেই সকলো বস্তু হাততে নাপাও আৰু তাৰ বাবে মোৰ দূখ ও নালাগে, মই তেওলোকৰ পৰা কেবল মোৰ প্ৰয়োজনীয়তাখিনিহে বিচাৰো । দিব নোৱাৰে মোক তেওলোকে আনৰ দৰে খমখমীয়া নোট কিন্ত নাটনিৰ মাজতে যি কেইটা দিয়ে তাতেই তেওলোকৰ সহতা মিহলি হৈ থাকে । নোৱাৰো মই আনৰ দৰে মা-দেউতাক যি লাগে তাকেই আব্দাৰ কৰিবলৈ কিন্ত অভাৱৰ মাজত যিখিনি পাইছো তাতেই মই সুখী । এতিয়া সৰু-বৰ সকলো সপোন নিজৰ মাজতেই জাপি দিছো । সপোনবোৰটো মোৰহে, মইহে দেখিছো তেন্তে মা-দেউতাক কিয় জাপি দিম ।

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Neither you can take away my pain,
Nor you can give back my happiness.
- so why are you keep trying?

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Hey people get the fuck out of my life.
I'm done enough with all of you.

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Do you want anything? -i wish he had asked.
Not, when you are around. - I would like to answer.

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People says "don't believe in words believe in actions"
But I don't think like that because every word comes through ourselves.
Maybe sometimes the words shatter our heart in many pieces,
yet It gives us hope, courage and we can sense that our inner voice, inner peace, inner spirit allow us to believe them. We watched movie, reading books.
We know that everything comes through imagination,
still we believe them in alive ways. Every chapter of books, every scene of movies remind us that it can be happen with us if we let it happen.
If the words hurt, they also have the power to heal. If the words break, they can also be add. Words are always beautiful as our heart.

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I love the way I dream about myself.
There is no hurryness everything happens slowly.
The wheel of time keep spinning but time never end.
I make everything what i want.
But when I back to reality it feels worse.
Everything starts to become bullshit and
I want to escape again and again into my own fantasies,
where no one is going to ask anything.

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I'm neither dreaming of good family nor good friends.
I'm just dreaming of be free and be bold,
that I can shove myself into a peaceful place,
where no crowds are allowed,
no fears are allowed,
where the sky seems to be shelter,
where the road takes each one to their destination,
where the people never judge.
Where I can share everything with the random strangers,
Which i probably can not share with my familiar's.

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I want you to wake up next to me the way you lock with myself.
I want you to make coffee for me that I can complain about your lackness.
I want you to make things right between the two of us.
I want you to hear my incomplete sentence that I have never been able to say.
I want you to understand me when I'm being an anger.
I want you to tell me that I'm the only one you love.
I want you to feel me that you will always be my side.
I want you to make me believe that you will always love me the way you did before.
I want you to make me fairless, make me stronger, make me confidential.
I want you to say me that you will never choose anyone over me.
I want you to share every little things with me.
I want you to fight with me the way you can catch me wrong.
I want you to sing a song for me when I get a little upset.
I want you to take me away from all these awkwardness.
I want you to spend the rest of my life the way we love.
I want you to love me the way you would never have any regrets.
I want you to tell me that I'm your girl.
I want you to tell me that no one can snatch me from you.
I want you to feel me that words "you're all mine."
I want you...
I want you...

-Rim

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Time heals everything.

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