There is no way to disappear, no way to hide.
Slowly getting numb out there,
as if they taking all my breathes out there.
That person who used to fear darkness,
Find warmth on that tiny spaces.
Time changes
Some has good turns, some have bad.
Mine is much worse,
Infront of the mirror, I feel gross
But I'm still alive.
And I will be.
Getting used to it,
Gonna watch how much worse this life give,
But not leave, I wanna win like this.

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Citylights seems beautiful from far,
No darkness, there's nothing to fear.
But from far, you could never hear a cry of those tired souls,
hiding behind those walls.
No darkness, oh yes on those streets
But filled with lot of dark secrets and greed.

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"Ignore them who don't want to understand you and listen to you. They are not meant to stay with you forever unless there is a need..."

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when you're hurt
Suffers like your heart is chained that hampers your beat.
Never been like this,
Felt like a left-out
With so many friends around.
Never been in such loneliness,
Felt like this world is filled with fake face.
Everything fake, nothing to trust.
In cold winter, with frozen heart,
No one there to give warmth.
Froze in cold like solid ice,
No strengths can break with single strike.
No one notices, until your heart stop to beat,
Fake love all around makes harder to live.

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That can never get hidden by lies which is as small as those shanty town.

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Is there someone,
Who can take me out of this selfish and so called double faced humans world?
Neither I could trust nor I could breathe,
Getting fucked up everyday
With this daily repeated routine.

Is there someone,
Who can make me forget all those moments that I hate the most?
Neither I could forgive nor I could move on.
Getting a flashback that stabs me with thousand knives at one time,
And there again my day get wasted on.

Life sucks from beginning, I say,
Its hard to move on with that quotes daily
Filled with finding peace.
Nothing works when it happens to oneself.

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Where you could hide your emotions
with that mask and scarfs.
No one could see,
No one could know,
But the one who love you the most,
Could feel that you're hurting the most.

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"Sometimes my life become like a ludo game,
No matter how many times I remove the opponent's pieces, I always become a loser. Even if I wait for one number in dice to enter home, I don't know how there's also my luck doesn't stay with me. I lose. All the time. Is this my luck so bad? Or my strategy? Or my life is reflecting the character of Akshay Kumar in Housefull movie?"

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Of thousands,
I'm waiting for you,
And you're searching for me.
Our heart rhythm matches,
When we met our eyes,
In the crowd of thousands.
Its a moment that feels like,
at least someone still care about me,
In this world, where they tried to cast me out.

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How I feel about you,
Shy, whenever you're near.
But Happy, whenever you call me near.
But No,
I hid my feelings not because of shyness,
But to lose you as my best friend.
As being demisexual,
Is hardest to fall in love again.
Now, nothing could I think,
So let it be one sided love.
And let our life goes,
wherever our destiny takes us.

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