It's like...
Being addicted to crack
Looking forward to another heart attack
Another diehard fight to top
Still plagues my mind alot...
But I digress
Back to the crack
No not the drug
Although I wish it was that
It's that crack that makes the heart stop
Die for a minute then get up back
Oh the shock!
Once more yearning for that pain I now lack...

Fuckin' idiot!

The mirror mumbled something incoherent
But he knew I could hear it
The bitterness of his reality was a stifling air
I plugged up my nose and ripped off my ears
She just stares
He laughs menacingly
Knowing I am now aware
In an out of consciousness
Fighting this mirrored nightmares.

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How can I trust,
When you've stolen my heart?
How does it work?
You've got my emotions chained to the dark...

How can I trust,
After you've whipped me so hard?
What feelings do I have left,
After you've stripped the layers of my sleeves without regards?

How can I trust,
After you lost your disguise?
Trust?
How can I?
When everything about you is a lie.

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Life is filled with rises and falls,
But mostly falls...
Been around the block so much;
I done heard it all!
In this great big hall,
Gathering;
All the voices in my head.
Black hoods chanting to the dead,
Using a feather to move a block of lead!
This plane and it's tricks.
Just when you think you're right side up,
It flips!
Now,
Who can I talk to about this?

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In every pain there is joy to be felt,
Down times leaves you vulnerable,
Be careful who you allow to help.
I am always here if you ever need to be helped!

My unborn child;

Just like your father be humble yet strong!
Let proper morals and respect be the shoes in which you stand,
Think for yourself and always have a plan.

Friends are needed but always depend on yourself,
Your own happiness will be your greatest wealth!

I never intended for the wait to be so long,
That you can always blame on your mom!
One day you'll better understand,
The right one some time takes forever to come along.

With love,
Your father.

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My adrenaline is the morphine to fight through this pain,
Dodging shards as I try to dive through this pane!

To be a hero you've got to be a villain these days,
What a daze.

 Trying not to trip over my cape,
No rescue should I fall so far out on this cape,

Trying to do the seemingly impossible...

Closed eyes in order to see,
The ocean is just another name for the sea!

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Painful lucid dreams,

You forgot what I remembered...

Trying to forget,

I remember...

Who are you again?

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You don't know the PAST
Yet you want to sympathize with the PRESENT
Only because you are oblivious to the FUTURE

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We're trying to hold on,
Even though it's going sour.
Still trying to convince ourselves,
The future hours is ours...

Together forever was a lie told to us as kids!
So who do we kid?
It's even obvious in the way that we live,
Things unforgettable even after we've agreed to forgive.

Still barely holding on,
Believing in lies,
Hoping it'll keep us as one.
The two of us;
Held by a few mere connecting strands.
We've survived the losses of the winds but can we survive this storm?

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The shadows was her cloak.
Shrouded in mystery,
I had no idea what she was about.
Honey and lies poured from her mouth;
Sweet sins calling me out.

Without a doubt I slept with the devil.
My enchantment tree gave her some magical wood;
Fucked her good.

She bought me wings to fly to the heavens,
Lingering on the hopes of being there with me,
Reminiscing on that day I changed her sixes to sevens.
The chronicle of me and my demon chilling in heaven...

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I treat you like a bitch and you still pour your soul at my feet...
Days of being absent,
Nights of being discrete.

A dawg;
Walking you on a leash.

Text me how much of a heartbreak I can be.
Laying in bed naked;
Waiting on me.

Tears and a wet pussy soaking the sheets,
Juices seeping until you fall asleep.

Same thing last year this time...
Another black valentines?

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