My heart breaks into a thousand pieces
Every time I close my eyes
Your voice echoes in my ears
Saying sweet little nothings
And then all the words filled with rage
My heart cries
But it still aches for your embrace
My heart hurts
As if someone's piercing thousand needles
Every time I try to sleep
Your memories echo in my brain
You laughing all out about something
And then there's all this agression
My heart is scared
But it still craves your touch
Will you come back
Hug me so tight
cuddle me in the lonely nights
Kiss me and stay
Even after everything
I still hope
There's no goodbye

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Women chasing their dreams are selfish
Those creating obstacles are not
They say they are protecting you
In this big wild world
What If something happens
They are possessive of you
Coz you are a girl
You don't know the ways
You are not wise enough
Women not recognising the limits are stupid
But those drawing the lines are not
If it's about managing a home
They expect you to be a rock
Just because you are a girl
You need to handle all
Women not fitting into a mould are dumb
Those not leaving the pond are not!

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I know
you are hurt
and I know what I did
Can you let it go
I am sorry
Will you forgive me
I didn't mean
Can you look at me
and talk to me
I know it's a lot to ask
I thought I was doing enough
I know now it was overthought
I was hurting you
and I never cared
Now I miss your voice
the way you used to smile
and how you used to tell
everything nice and some with spice
Can you let it go
I know now I miss your laugh
and your silly talks
The glitters and sunshine
the solace of starry nights
I am afraid of loosing you
So can you love me back
Can I kiss you and hold you
I love you
and I know now!

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Hey
I want you to kiss my forehead
and wake me up
Watch the morning sun
shining through the window together
You playing with my traces
Showering me with kisses
I want to stare back for hours
in your twinkling deer eyes
and fall in love with you again
Walk holding your hand
in starry nights
Laugh meaninglessly
Watch you being messy
Telling me something intriguing
and something ridiculously boring
I want you to talk for hours
and listen to your chatters
and fall in love with you again...

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Few days are okay
I do things I need to do
and things that I want to do
and enjoy the life I am grateful to have
But some days are unbearable
I still think of you
While sleeping I see you smiling
in my dreams
I think of the lullaby you had made for me
you used to sing and tease me
Sometimes It's just a passing thought
Sometimes just because I have still not
accepted the reality
Well it's unreal, atleast I wish so
The pain never goes away
It's there always 
like heartbeat
I smile and laugh and enjoy the life
I am grateful to have
Though it won't ever be same
Without you
I am happy but I will never be the happiest
Till I see you again...

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It's been a year since you left us....
But there has not been a single day when we have not remembered you... Your smile is the last thing i think about most days and most days it is the first thing as well... 

Life has now changed for all us and somewhere it will always be incomplete... I am sorry Ginni if i did not have enough time for you when you were here but I do miss you.. a lot.. I wish it was just a bad dream...Nobody knows what lies beyond but I hope it is a peaceful place!

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For most part of my life i used to think, like other regular optimists out there in the world, that the power of affection and love can change someone... If you truly, sincerely love someone with all what you have, the same will be reciprocated.

It took a while to understand, it is the way that the person is wired that they behave a certain way with certain people.. it is not about how you feel about them or how you make them feel... It is about what they are capable of doing. A mason cannot be a sculptor if he has no taste for  art. A person cannot reciprocate affection if he is not capable of love and a person cannot trust if he has no faith.

खिलते तो सब हैं बाग में
लेकिन हर फूल गुलाब नहीं होता...

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मुझमें भी इक जंगल है
हर रोज जो जल रहा
बाहरी दुनिया से छुप कर
अंदर ही सिमट रहा

मुझमें भी इक जंगल है

है बसेरा ये बहुतों का
जैसे बीती हुई बातों का
कुछ खोयी हुई यादों का
कुछ वर्तमान का
और थोड़ा भविष्य भी है

मुझमें भी इक जंगल है...

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Why it happens so often
that I need you
And more often than that
I want you
To listen to my silly stories
and to find them amusing
Sometimes my happy tales
but mostly my grumblings
Whatever I do wherever I go
I want to share it with you
And I want you to be a part of it
a part of my life
Not just another chapter but
the complete story!

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The more you ignore, the more I desire you...

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