You were ace of black spades,
i was a three.
Looked like a spider,
we were lying carefree.

And i guess, in that moment,
no power was strong to pull us apart-
For you forgot your power,
i forgot my powerlessness.

Forgetting the venoms we carry together,
chosing to build a web,
Probably,
i wasnt the one who chose the card,
Probably,
we were just the ones left.

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Shredding cards

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May be,
Kind and empaths are different.
May be,
Attached and empaths are different.
May be,
Empaths are different.

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Me bhulgai thi, mujhe bina jawab bhi pyar karna aata hai.
Khat likhti rahugi tujh tak ab,
dil deewana jogi, aakhir tak ab bas likhna chahata h.

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Ye mera hissa jo tera h hmesha k lie,
kuch baate, kuch yaadein hmesha k lie.
Nahi aata bahut kuch batana, bhuat tariko se,
par ye mera tareeka hmesha k liye.
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Dil k tukde hazar hue, kuch tere, kuch mere hisse.
Pata nahi kaunsa tera hai, kaunsa mera,
bas liye ja rahi hu..
Kya sahi, kya galat, kya parda,
parda hatake, teri baate dohra rahi hu.
Gaane pata nahi kiske hisse aaye,
sunn me rahi, dekh bas tujhe paa rahi hu.

Na jane shuruaat thi kesi,
na jane kahani ka viraam kaha;
gupt se shuru hui thi milna,
dusra janam fir na jane kaha.

Na garmahat bhul rahi, na bhul rahi teri koi baate,
na bhul rahi muskaan tere sang, na bhul rahi teri koi yaadein.
Chalna haina raste apne apne,
tu mat bata, par me apna bataugi,
kaash badh jaye aagey tu khudse,
mei roz tujh tak likhti jaugi.

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How much hurt a heart can hold?

May be that much, until it brims over the eyelid to flow out?
May be that much, until it starts echoing in everything you do.
May be that much, that there's thunder instead of heartbeats inside.
May be that much, until you roll over yourself to wrenching pain.
May be that much, that restlessness is the only breath you take.
May be that much, how much is meant to burn you and leave-
for may be there's something left in aching soul,
which may be, at present, i fail to see.

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I was there too.
In those moments where i experienced firsts too.
I was there too.

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Jo cahiye, wo maya.
Jo thikey, wo prem.

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I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOUR SUBTLE.

I fell in love with your subtle.
Your sunkissed face, where i should've been the sun.

I fell in love with your subtle.
Where you laughed, and surroundings blurred.

I fell in love with your subtle.
Where you were vulnerable, and you chose to share.

I fell in love with your subtle.
Where dim were lights and i was the only one you could see.

I fell in love with your subtle,
When games werent the ones you told you need.

I fell in love with every subtle of you,
for you were an art painted on white.
And when colors fill your face as you blink,
I know even dark life, is filled with brights.

I fell in love with subtle of you,
when you drove away while i looked your side.
I fell in love with subtle of you,
when it was me who left, and for you, it was alright.

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HOW IT FEELS LIKE FALLING

Embracing your lashes when you blink,
the sound of your laughter that fills my hollow ear rings.
The heartache i embrace in my guts,
the walk with you while on roads from dearth.

The touch i missed to touch,
the hugs i counted in my brain.
Your simple smile on my saddest days,
your support when life starts to fade.

Voice when silence is night,
ikigai when there's a rise.
Unknown to laughs to shivers down the spine,
resistance, tears but prayers so right.

A look of peace,
a dance of love.
Non negotiable "not giving up"
and your arms around my nerve.

May be my love story was a disaster,
and you in it, subtle rain with thunders.
Thunders which smell like life,
and me dying bird, charging her furs.

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