Won't you hold me close, dear
Hug me tight when I'm afraid
Won't you keep me right here
Don't let me pull away

Won't you listen kindly
When there's nothing much to say
Won't you absorb my sentences
When the letters start to fade

Won't you take my hand
Hold my head, hold my gaze
I'm telling you, don't take it hard
When I don't know how to stay

Won't you stay with me
Through all of my mistakes
Won't you let me fall and crash
Even if I break

And when I fall to pieces
When I start to pull away
Won't you grip me tighter, dear
Won't you love me all the same?

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I'm static stress
Shifting on-screen
Anxiety on television
Plain to be seen
A poker face
Though the hand is played
A shape concealed
With its shadow displayed
A melody
Where notes are skipped
A messanger bird
Whose wings are clipped
I'm directions you heard
But lost in the noise
I'm the thoughts you ignore
But cannot avoid

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I always assumed you'd see me get married

Or at least see me grow up

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I'm here again, waiting
But the goal in mind keeps changing
From grandiose to getting by
From underwater to the sky
And all of it's out of reach

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I'm totally hopeless
I've said so before
Quick to love but
Slow through the door
Can't say I'm familiar
With who you are yet
But your every word
I can't seem to forget
I'm enamored by your drive
Your intellect
Your humor, your honesty
Your self-confidence
After we speak
I'm left dreaming all day
Grinning like an idiot
About something you say
Yet with you I'm present
My head feels clear
I like who I am
Whenever you're near
And you don't need to know this
Don't worry, I won't tell
I doubt you would wish
To know that I'd fell
But I hope you find someone
Who cares just as much
God, I'm so slow to heal
And so quick to love

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What if I start to break
Let pieces fall away
What if I lay down and rot
Watch myself decay?
If I allow myself to crumble
Until my very being wanes
If I give my body to the earth
What would really change?

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Your gait
Your grin
And all your flaws
Are perfect

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I'm driving up a hill that's rather steep
Outside, my experiences surround me
I can't see far ahead
But the view behind is striking
Sometimes I pause my trek to look at it
Sometimes I look too long
And grief sinks in
I slide down the hill, but you don't get any closer
It's dangerous to stop driving
I don't know where I go when I slide back down
But I never seem to find what I need

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I can't maintain ignorance
Yet never miss a beat
I cannot dig my heels in
But never drag my feet

I cannot hold a trusting gaze
While staring with suspicion
I can't keep my heart in place
While sliding to submission

I cannot force my head down
While holding it up high
I cannot take the common ground
When hurled into the sky

What I can do is stay silent
Avoid you best I can
While I wonder if you miss me
I'll no longer take a stand

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I grow unsteady
I remember that I'm standing on ice
Of an unknown thickness
This uncertainty is frightening.
To strengthen the ice beneath me
I keep my surroundings cold

I'd rather freeze on my own two feet
Than drown in the water below

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