back then,
I lost you
now,
you lost me

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It’s getting harder the longer Iook at you
What is this meaningless longing?
Though I know you’re not mine
What is this heaviness in heart when I think of someone else in your thoughts and arms closer to you and your warmth?
Are you another road not to be taken or a road for only me to explore?
Even as I ponder it, I know I’m sailing on the wrong side
The longer I wait for you, the stronger this thought grows
Even if you see me What could I wish for from u
What CAN I wish for?
Your eyes on me and your smile at the thought of me?
What will I do when I won’t get it?
When I see that I never had a chance, what would become of me?
Would I fall again like the last time
Will I suffer a deeper wound?
Will I cry more tears, hotter and fat
falling with a thump on me and trying to wake me up?
Or will my agony move the stone of a god?
Even if a do a million more things
Will it change the truth?
Will I be able to get back up again?
Or will I fall forever, for the final time
deep into the abyss, never to live smile and hope again?

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how quickly you can free yourself from the anchors holding you in place and dragging you down

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"I was born like a rose, beautiful and pretty,
twenty years in your control and now I'm like the Great Wall of China"

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I hold them close like the patch of garden I feel as a second home
but I never realise I was the storage shed who's thought of only when in need

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abusing myself to and for infinity

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Love and Miss

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the intoxicating smell of wet earth,
luring me back to it again and again

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the reality of either your existence or mine

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forget that writer's block exists
also, forget that you are prone to it

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