I am tired of those tremors and panic attacks. I wanna scream my pain and let out everything. I wanna die while screaming so that every inch of me is been reflected as a energy beam while screaming. the scream should be sharp enough to cut off all the petals of human ears. and they all should die hearing that noise and my pain. I know suicide is never a solution. but I can't take it anymore. yes I wanna fight back anxiety, depression, ocd, etc but I am tired of being not so me.