Everytime I have loved people,I have loved without any condition and without the sense of expectation or appreciation from them.
Many will call me naive and unwise, which is not entirely fictious.
But, what love is if you do not ununderstand the consequences of your actions and senses !

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They say the Universe is folded on itself ,
Again and again and again !
Is that why
there are so many shades of me
within myself?
Is that why
I want the same
and the opposite
at the same time?
Is that why
I want to be your pain
and your relief
at the same time ?
Is that why ?

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Once you start to despair yourself,
there is no coming back.
How could you come back knowing
that your mistakes weigh heavier than your life!!
The grief strangles and the guilt burns.
It burns and burns till every dream,
every desire you once had from life
is reduced to ash and dust.
At this point,
the endgame is near and inevitable.
You spend days picturising your end.
It gives you those rare moments of peace.
Knowing that it will all be over soon.
A fitting ode
to every drop of tear shed.
Such a relief!
True salvation!

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My journey is a tragically sarcastic one.
Every day I go some hard miles or so in pursuit of purpose. I find some.
Then with every sunset I come running straight back to you, or whatever part of you is left around me.
The night is a great keeper.
It leaves you with tears; It gives me my words to play with.
I am sure we imbibed atleast some of those on each other.
In a parallel world, we would have been less miserable. Things would have been even better than what we left behind. Separation would have been without casulty.
But I like these nights better ; this- meeting you only in the shades- is my new favourite thing despite the puddles of tear and saliva often chocking me in my sleep.

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Most importantly it has nothing to do with what people have to say.
It is a force born from a cosmic interaction and is without any laws or boundaries to be interfered with.
My love for you will be my only possession which I will never have to share with anybody.
The day I took Desire out of it, it became the purest of thing I know in this realm.
It is not perfect by any means, nor is it far from inconvenience.
At junctions I have casted doubt upon it, have been subjected to great agony, yet it lives on; beyond any mortal promises, above any human nature.

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It's always about you.
Whether I lose or I win; it will always be about you!
I don't want all these to be about you.
I want some of these names and some fame for me.
But it's all about you.
It has always been about you.
You fool , you couldn't see it!!
It's you. Always you. It has always been about you!
Whether I win or I lose; It will always be You .

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I may have done things!
Some did sting;
some would even make me cringe.
As unapologetic as it may ring,
yet,unhinged by the desire
to become The King,
I must have done things!

It's my bad,
I had to.
Just a tad bit of remorse and,
and I had to.
It was unbearable in parts and,
and I am sad too.

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It's the final curtain being lifted
They'll now see your pale face,
the shrunken eyes, and,
the burden of betrayal on your race.
It's okay. It's just the case
how it should have been.
Long before,
they stole your peace
and left you in this mess.
It's okay to be fooled;
twice from your beloved and
Forever from Grace.
Now rest!!

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Midnight Fight Against
Self Rights and Rhymes
of my Crime that went
Ridin'bove Eyeline, Flying
high like a Kite in the
Timid Tides of Time.

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It's the same
story.

Pain, not in a
hurry.

Blurry specs,
slurry speach,
glory spoken.
Not so sorry .

Burried me ,
I was so horrid ?

Now don'tell me
you are all worried !

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