She is your shadow people said ,
What if I am your shadow? , I asked .
How does it even matter? ,she said ,
But it did matter to me, I muttered .
I was with you in all your rollercoaster rides ,
Sometimes I feel so hollow from inside ,
Though I wore a wide smile for the tears to hide ,
Still uphold myself during that rough tides,
Why are you always so repulsive ,
The silence amogst us is so oppressive ,
One look of yours and my heart pounded in my chest,
My soul is shaken and filled with unrest ,
If i see in the mirror I only see your reflection,
Everything i do is with you in mind ,
But in your eyes I only see humiliation,
And I am not even at your back of mind,
So This time I want to stand tall for me,
For once I want the light to follow me ,
And not let this darkness to swallow me,
This time I will not let you conceal me.

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Tere ek rang se mein saare rang bana lun
Khud ko tere sare rangon se jod lun
Kuch is tarah khud ko tere nam kr dun
Ke jab nam le tera yeh sansar toh yeh srishti uske nam kr dun

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Now that you aren't a stranger,
Let's expose our scars,
The scars we hide from others,
The scars that you left intact,
The scars that echo's your youth,
I know it is not easy and this is a fact,
I know you are not that eager .
Let's unravel the darkest secrets ,
The secrets that we keep close to us,
I know it's uncomfortable ,
I know this hurts ,
But trust me there will be no regrets .
Juggling between vulnerability and resellience,
Choice is yours solace or silence,
Now that you aren't a stranger,
But what if you become one tomorrow,
Will I be able to let you go?,
Until then, can we be each other's cheer leader?.

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A message I'm afraid to send :

Was it wrong to be with you 

Was it wrong to love you with all my heart 

Was it wrong to care for you even when I was hurt 

Was it wrong to be the one always seeking an apology when I wasn't even wrong 

Was it wrong to tell my parents about us 

Was it wrong to dream about us and our future together 

Was it wrong to give you time when I didn't have much time 

Was it wrong to cherish all the memories that we had 

Was it wrong to live in flashbacks of us being in love 

Was it wrong to even call it a love relationship 

Was it so wrong that you couldn't even tell anyone about us 

Was it so wrong that you never give it a thought even before getting married 

Was it so wrong that you didn't even bid farewell to us and our love 

Was it so wrong or were you too busy or scared or I don't know what that you couldn't just think of taking a stand for us 

Was it all just wrong for you or was it just your fear of losing your family and  your lifestyle overpowering the fear of losing me

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How to know if it's a mistake?
Interesting question, no?
While reading, you might have flashbacks, I know.
Where should I start from?
Well, the answer to this comes like a storm.
A storm of situations where everything was grey,
Someone was always falling prey,
Is it a mistake? Always, I used to say,
Even when I had no ears to listen anyway.
They say if you have to hide it, then it's a mistake always,
Yes, it might be a mistake as ones say.
But I wonder, how can they be so sure?
Is there anyone so pure?

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Par sach kahun toh ,

Shayad ek aur janam lagega

Mujhe tumhari yaadein mitane mein .

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You and the moon are like the two divine entities that are admiring each other's charisma and making the twilight all the more alluring for me .

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सोचते हैं कि क्या कहे उनसे , नाम भर से जिनके हमारी महफिलें रोशन हो जाती है।
फिर सोचते है क्या समझ जाएंगे वो , की कैसे उनके जिक्र के बिना हमारी नज़्म अधुरी रह जाती है।

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विचार को समझने में समय लगेगा।
नया विचार है इसलिए दिल लगाने में समय लगेगा।

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Intezaar bhi kabhi kabhi apne sath Khushi la skta hai
Ek mulaqat bhi kabhi kabhi apne sath phir Milne ki khwahish la sakti hai
Pyar me mila hua dard bhi kabhi kabhi apne sath sukoon la sakta hai
Kisi ki ek muskurahat bhi kabhi kabhi aap ke poore din ki thaqan Mita sakti hai
Aur unki bas vo ek zalim nazar hi humara dil pighla sakti hai

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