Soon this will end
Trees hv shed their leaves
Some still there, evergreen
But less active
Storing energy to deal coldness
Night's getting freezy
Colder enough to freeze
Yet the blood still running
Down my veins
It's December
Again

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I wish you met me ,on those days
when lack of speech wasn't my thing

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What if one fine day I'll get the
courage to leave
To leave the things that I'm attached to
To leave the people that aren't
willing to choose me
To leave the places that had abondoned me
To leave the thoughts that are deeply
enrooting my mind
What if, one fine day I'll learn to
be with myself
To not care about, what they'll think of me
To not overthink everytime
To not over explain the things, for which
I was never at fault
What if I'll learn not to be the slave
of my feelings
What if I'll learn to move on with my life,
without thinking of who'll stay
What if I'll learn to let go of the things
that were never mine

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Under the night sky
I think of the crescent moon
That holds the smile all through
When stars fill up my room
When fireflies ignite with full bloom
Walking down the empty streets
I find you roaming in my dreams

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How I view the life
Probably there's no one
I see the sadness in everything
In chills of December, In forthcoming
autumn after springs, In the
scroaching heat of summer
Probably that's what I'm made of
I see nothing but the darkness
that I'm beholding within my heart
That's drowning all the light
around me

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And today I haven't felt the
same, as I felt year back
You are not in my mind
Finally the time took us apart
That time I used to think, how it's
like to be as I'm today
Now I don't frequently think of you
Now my eyes don't get wet
Now I'm not afraid of losing you
Now I don't fear, how I'll live
without you
I've learnt how to survive
I just realized, now you aren't
as special as you were
It was my feeling that made you

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कैसे बोल दूँ तुम्हे
कि अब तुम दर्द की वजह बन गए हो
जब भी तुम्हे सोचती हूँ
तुम आते हो मिलने मुझसे आँसू बनकर
शायद महसूस तो तुम्हे भी होती होगी
मेरी तन्हाई
लेकिन आदत है तुम्हे साथ इसके जीने की
बुरा तो लगता होगा तुम्हे भी
लेकिन ये सब तो तुम्हारी आदतों में शूमार है
और आदते कहा बदलती है इतने कम वक़्त में
कैसे बोल दूँ तुम्हे
कि अब तुम दर्द की वजह बन गए हो
ये जानते हुए भी कभी जो तुम मुझे सोचोगे,
तो निकल आयेंगे तुम्हारे भी आंशू
कभी जो तुम्हे दर्द महसूस होगा,
तो तुम मुझे दिए दर्द को उसकी वजह बताओगे
ऐसे में कैसे रोकूँगी उन आँखों
को रोने से
जिनके लिए हमेशा बस माँगी हो दुआ
प्यारे सपनो की
ढेरो खुशियों की

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now that you aren't the same
as you were
tell me what I do of this feeling
that's inside me
i don't know how to deal with this
it's like I was dreaming all night,
and woke up with no clue
i learned to live with myself,
through hard ways
I was secure in dark, but i turned
like moth to the flames
but now it's been long, I haven't
lived with myself
so i doesn't like my company
anymore
i think i got used to you
now this silence hits me harder,
than the noises that i hear around

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Trees letting go of their leaves in winter

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Probably it's the sluggish ones
That holds the connection till last

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