homewrecker
~a lament

(captioned)

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i loathe my words,
the way they beckon wanderers
like a siren's call,
the otherworldly creatures
always seem drawn to
the treasures buried beneath,
some float over the surface,
few swim in tandem
with the waves,
never did one try reaching for
the depth,
soon they draw away
the way they came,
the blue pool water
that pulls them in,
wrenches them away
when they find themselves
ocean deep,
the mystery that draws them in
now makes them leave,
leaving my call for help
unheard, still echoing.

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what a goddamn tragedy it is,

to love in poetries and keep it within,

to beg for the love of pinpricks,

to breathe and not be able to live,

to die in the lonesome

yet plant sunflowers all over thine grave,

what a goddamn tragedy, indeed.

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if cities were to bear a name,
mine would scream yours,

for all the time
i spent in the streets and corners
talking about my home,

their own name got lost in the winds
and they began craving
for yours,

my own living space now,
calls you home.

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— % & — % & Glossary:
•Mayhem– violent or extreme disorder; chaos.
•Myriad– a countless or extremely great number.
•Macabre– disturbing because concerned with or causing a fear of death.
•Monotonous– dull, tedious; boring.
•Mummified–buried; wrapped in a cloth. (egyptian org.)
•Malevolence– the state or condition of being malevolent; hostility.
•Malady– a disease or ailment.
•Meander– follow a winding course; moving.
•Mildew– a fungi, mold.
•Mausoleum– large building housing tombs.
•Mystify– utter bewilderment, perplexity.
•Mutilation– infliction of violent, serious injury.
•Milestones– significant events in life (here)
•Mangled– destroyed, seriously damaged by tearing.
•Manacles– shackles for wrist/ankle.
•Mirthless– lacking real amusement and typically expressing irony.
•Maelstrom– a situation or state of confused movement or violent turmoil.
•Masochism– a behaviour in which someone gets pleasure from their own pain or suffering.
•Melliferous– yielding or producing honey.
•Bewail– express great regret, sadness, or disappointment.
•Marionette– a puppet worked by strings.
•Magdalene– (archaic) a reformed prostitute; a sinner (here)
•Marred– impaired, spoiled.
•Manifold– many and various.— % &

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i fade in me, i find you,
you don't consume me,
i don't cage you,

i feel you as i breathe you in,
i flee from all around
yet find myself free in you,

i don't know me
yet i know you more,
seems i don't know the time
when i didn't know you
anymore,

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every time I feel
the madness oozing out of my skin,
I scrape it upon a piece of paper in my haste,
for some fools call it art, much to my chagrin.

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Isn't this insane?
This...this inexplicable urge
to run and run,
only to stop when there's
no way to run anymore,
to run to the middle of nowhere,
to reside in the
vast nothingness,
to live nowhere near,
not the pestering past,
the fragile future,
nor in this never-ending now.
Is this insane?

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but i feel the echoes of those whispers
wanting to come out again,
they slither back and wait inside me,
from my head to the tip of my toe,
and i would be ready for them
to crawl out again,
because,

WHO AM I

IF NOT MY OWN FOE?

//in caption//

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and darling,
if you wish to live in silence,
I would deny the whole world to bother
you with its existence.

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