The scar of the heart may not be visible in daylight
Only I know how hard I try to sleep with this wagon of pain every night.

Injuries may have been healed with time,
But the marks have decided to remain.

Restless on my bed,I toss and turn...
Trying my hard to control my thoughts.

It still takes me there , the lane I've left,
Maybe to let me get buried with the pain.

The past of my life keeps flashing right before my eyes...
Tearing me apart, shattering me again & again.

The darkness of my life is clearly visible in the dark,
Here I'm trying to give my soul a voice to speak my heart.

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Whenever I feel down...
I feel like running to you.

But Dear....
You've already closed the door.

I know...if I knock, You'll open,
But,you know... I'll get stuck with u again...

& This is what you don't want,do you ?

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"I've told you sweetheart I'm not a good guy to fall for"

"So all those sweetest things...? Was any of that real? "

"Maybe No"

"Ok..same from my side also"

"It's a relief then"

(They both knew they were lying)

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And one fine day
He disappeared like he was just my illusion.

And here...
I'm still waiting for the magic (he) to give its finish touch...

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She had nothing to ask for.
She didn't want to complain more.

She gazed at those eyes, lost in her thoughts...
Still silent... uttering no words.

But had no control over her sobbing soul,
"I don't deserve this pain...God"

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He is more like a fictional character of the novel I read.
I can feel him though, still far away from my sight.

I'm not lying when I say he is all into me,
Still....he is nowhere.

Sensation of connecting souls over bodies,
In his voice I experience the heavenly feel.

The thrill he gives me like no one else..
He is not a daydream, rather a fantasy I live in.

Can I call him my secret Romance?
Or a mystery I want to lose myself in...?

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& she realised....she loved a 'Monster' all her life just to be like him.

(You know what's the best part... "She is turning into...")

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The meeting was planned though,
the 'Hug' from him came unexpectedly.

It's not the first time he hugged me, 🫂
Definitely after a long time.

I confronted him I've been moved on,
As I thought that's what he wanted to hear.

Did that enkindle him that I no longer desire him?
He clung me more firmly like he never wanted me to leave. ❤️‍🔥

I'll be lying if I say I felt weird
I felt the same magic & the same vibe ✨

But yeah... Maybe I was a little wonderstruck ...
"Is this a good-bye hug?"
"Or this came out of jealousy?"
"Maybe it depicts how much he has missed this..."
"Or Is it a sign ....to give us a chance again? "❤️‍🩹

Neither I spoke nor he...
I still wonder what did that hug mean?

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"Marriage is so scary....what if he won't love me?"

" he would be an idiot...if he won't love you."

& again with a beep sound 📱
"Who wouldn't love you??"

(If she was convinced or not.. that was a different thing but she was gratified that it came from "him" )

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What made you open up to a stranger?

"Even Idk... With him it just feels easy"

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