प्यार तो किया है बेशक् मगर, बताने से रहे
राहे साथ तो चले मगर, मिलने से रहे
तुझे एक झलक देखने की खातिर वक़त से लर गए
है जाने कितनी बार!
तेरी आवाज सुनने को, तरसे है ज़ार ज़ार!
शब्दों की दुनिया में तुझे ही तो खोजा है,
लय की भाव में तेरी ही आहटे गिनी है!

मगर, ए काफ़िर कैसे ज़ाया करे हम ये ख्याल?
यहाँ तो तेरी नजरे भी हमसे मिलने से रहे!
इस शीशे ने तो कह दिया है हमसे,
"तु काबिल नही है किसी के मोहब्बत कि!"
अब ख्वाइश है तो बस एक बार तेरी नज़रों से खुदको देखने की!

रूह में झाकोगे तो पाओगे एक समंदर भर की कहानियाँ,
मगर, ए काफ़िर तेरी नज़रों में भी दिखीं अगर वही ज़ालिम शीशा,
तो बदल लेना तु राहें...फेर लेंगे हम नज़रे!
फिर चलेंगे हम वापिस, उसी दुनिया में जहाँ तु मेरे लियेे बस एक अजनबी था,
मोहब्बत, की शहद से भरा कोई पहेली नहीं!

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The voice in my head that says...
"You're not enough!"

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I've known the sound of heartbreak...
The feeling of emptiness...the stealthy ways of darkness...the naked stare of hatred...
So, when you came along,
Your very breath filled with laughter, your touch full of love, your eyes full of adoration...
I was baffled...
Your light shone on me, enroute to further murk...
And I stood there... Unable to define the emotions washing over me...
You kissed me...
Held me close...and all I could think was... "How could a person feel so perfect? "
'Cause meaning nothing to anybody, is all I've ever known,
"The odd one", is what I've always felt like...
A loner is what I've been...a shroud of silence is what has always hidden my urge to speak...
Yet here you are, loving, caring, being the one I've yearned for...
Can I ever value you enough?
Maybe all this shouldn't be crossing my mind...
But...believe it or not sleepyhead...
You're my first love,
My first hug,
My first kiss,
My first man,
And if you leave, you'll be my first heartbreak too...
And yes...it'll hurt...
But still, I'd wanna be there through it all,
Because the real me has found her existence with you...
And if the end arrives... I'll have to find a way to bury her...
Again!

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Your arrival has made me want to be myself...
And I'm scared to think what your walking away could do...
Your words have filled my heart with dreams...
Your warm caresses have made me want to be yours...
Everytime ours lips have touched...ecstasy has filled my soul...
Everytime our eyes have met...burning desire has rushed through my veins...

But love... What are you?
Are you an incarnation of the devil himself, or are you an angel just?
Are you here to be my one true love, or are you here to drown me in lust?
Will you be the one to stay till my day wanes, or will you be first one to leave?

Love...
Shall I wait for you tomorrow ? Will you be there?
Or shall tonight be the last time we meet,
Let this fiery story be labelled, just another affair!

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I don't know where I'm headed with you...I don't know what we've begun!
Maybe we'll walk over to a sweet meadow... Maybe over to the wildest bush we'll run!

But all I'll ever care about is being with you through it all,
Feeling every tremor, bearing the wrath of every leaf stripped at fall!

With bated breath and a thumping heart, I'll continue to wait for you...
On the long stretches of separation, I'll ache for you...

Love, I won't ask you to be just mine,
Doused in the darkness of sleepless nights, I'll only wait for that light kiss of yours, be you near or far...
And I'll keep waiting, until wet eyes and a wet pillow, finally coerce me into a disturbed sleep,

Why?
'Cause, I love you,
In more ways than I care to describe...

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Marriage...
Was it a good decision?
Is it changing us, slowly transforming our relationship into a burden?
They say, tried and tested is always better than hastened.
But...that's what we did right?
Loved, dated, courted, spent long nights talking, made love, shared hearts, shared lives, shared souls!
Stayed uo all night gawking at football matches, and spent evenings equally hooked on to crime documentaries and romcoms alike...
Then where did we go wrong?
Why, nowadays when you look at me, do I only see judgement and threadbare tolerance?
And why do I only look back with resentment and suspicion?

All those years, were you pretending or was I?
Were we really in love or simply too attached to let go?

Love,
How much time before we finally break,
How long before this oppression breathes life into the already stirring volcano,
How long before a few papers weigh more than our vows,
Has love changed or have we?
Will anything ever be the same again,
Or has love, this time, really given up on it's endeavors to find a way back?....

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Dirt paths have lured me to walk through their irregular terrain...
High mountains, their peaks bathed in snow, and bottoms lush with greenery have echoed my name...
The blood red hue of sunset and the teeming lights in a moonless sky have hypnotized me!

Yet, nothing compares to the hypnotic serenity of that shady gaze, that erratic up and down of your chest, the heat of your breath as your eyes wash over all of me!
My heart thumps, a million butterflies flutter in my stomach and my mouth dries up with anticipation...
Anticipation of your touch, your body on mine...your warm tongue assaulting my nipples...
Lust courses through my veins like the a million sparkling explosions as you close up on me, your male form more taut than it ever has been!

"Come closer! ", I wish to scream...but only a whimper escapes my lips...
As hands handcuffed to the bedstead, eyes blindfolded, completely naked and legs spread wide to reveal the wet, pink, throbbing, fleshy folds between my thighs...I yearn for you!

Yearn for the night to begin...and never in a million years meet it's end!

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An evening drenched in untimely rain...
The curtains executing a flailing dance in the soft blowing wind...

Sipping on cups of steaming hot espresso...
Snuggled in your warm embrace...
Listening to your heartbeat, blending in with the pattering of rain drops...
Pressed against the warmth of your body, even as your musky scent fills my nostrils...
Your finger tips slowly running through the length of my hair...
Soft forehead, cheek and lip kisses exchanged every now and then...

Accompanied by the voice of Sanam softly crooning "Lag ja galey" in the background...

That will always be my perfect date...
Wherever you are, will always be the perfect place!

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...And yet, in your eyes,
it will always be her who is to blame!

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Before I met you, I never knew a pair of eyes could be so strikingly intense...
Never knew a first eye contact with a stranger would make me crave his attention...
Never knew it'd make me want to bare my all, whenever I'd feel that intent gaze on me!

I was scared, you know, to meet your eyes, everytime we'd pass each other, lest you should read my mind!
Find out how much I needed you, how much I wanted to satisfy you, how much I wanted to swallow every drop of your warm juice, run my tongue all over you!

And as on that fateful day, you cornered me,
one hand on the small of my back and the other holding up my chin as your lips began their sensuous assault on mine...
That day, amidst the flurry of discarded clothes, your hands and tongue running all over my body,
and our heady arousal,
You took me...your thrusts deep and hard...and so complete was the feeling, so profound the gush of warm breaths on skin...
That I was more than willing to lose myself to you... Forever!

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