Not a poetry but something I want to put down in words!

A battle I have been dealing since not known from when,
A battle with myself, my own thoughts, my emotions, my feelings
Everything was so mine that I end up being alone today.
Though this loneliness I chose by myself and there's no one to blame of!
It's not that I don't love the people I used to love, it's just lately but I've realized that all this time I was just a burdensome on many people,
Thus I drew this line.
A distance from everything and everyone!

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Kabhi akele hi khud se khud ko khush karti woh ladki
Aaj hazaaron ke bich me jo ghum-sum si baithi hai woh ladki
Kabhi sabke haan mein haan milati, sabke sath me saath deti dekhi woh ladki,
Aaj har baat me naa, gairo se chodo , apno se saath chhudaane lagi hai woh ladki.
Kabhi lakh chup karana se bhi na rukti woh ladki,
Aaj shoro se chirchira jaati woh ladki.
Kabhi ek pal ko das panno me dhalti woh ladki,
Aaj kayi din beet jane par bhi kya mehsoos hota hai,
na bata pati kisi ko woh ladki.

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Waise toh pehle likhte the toh wah wahi ki fikr na rehti
Aaj har lekhni me kisi ki tarif (appreciation) achchi lagti hai.

Yun toh apne bhi dhyan na dete aaj kal
Wohi tamaam ajnabiyo ke bich koi aap sa hai, yeh dil ko aaj rahat deti hai.

P. S:Just a thank you note😊

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He feels like a part of him has lost, or may be the old self has totally lost
He doesn't feel, doesn't vibe with others
Can't connect, can't relate
He doesn't know how it happened
But he feels like he has become a piece of broken glass
Which, when come closer to someone , it just hurts
It made them bleed.
He doesn't know how to talk with others
How to react
He just felt like he has lost himself somewhere.

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Wanna live a day pretending to be dead
No humans, no family, not a single thing around mine
Just a day, being dead
Cold and numb
Quiet and silence
No chaos, not even a single tune of music
Just me lying dead onto the floor
And while I pass the day and would be waken up to the next day
Just don't want any QA session
And continue the life I had before that single dead day.
Just one day being dead.
Lying onto the floor
Cold and numb.
Quiet and silence.

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Jab aakhiri baar mile the hum humko pata bhi nahi tha ke woh Mulaqaat aakhiri hogi

Mujhe bye bolne ke baad usne kaha tha mujhse ke ab woh kamra khali sa lagega, usme use meri kami si khalegi....!

Maine uske unn baaton ko mohabbat samjha, dur baithe uske zazbaaton ko uska sach maan liya, aur usne. .....

Apne kamre mein meri kami na khale isiliye,meri jaate hi kisi aur ko le aya😂😂😂

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थोड़ी सी बचीं थी जो यादें तेरी
अब वो भी धुंधली, होती जा रही है ॥

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Kisi sakhsh ko chahna bin uske Maujoodgi ke
Kisi ki majboori nahi manjoori hoti hai,
Ek tarfa chahat bhi janab
Ishq hoti hai.

Ishq tab tak sahi hai jab tak ke ummeed naa ho,
Dil tootne ki koi gunjayish na ho.
Kayaamat toh tab aati hai jab,
Ummeed pe khade mohabbat haar jati hai.

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Ye pata ho ke jisse taqlif juri hai,
Jee ko jo roz hi jalati hai,
Kareeb fir bhi usi ko chahna
Bhala ye bhi koi samajhdaari hai?? 😂

Khair mann hai aaj mera
ke main shayar ban jauun😉
Thodi main tujhe yaad karu,
thodi tujhko meri yaad dilaaun☺

Nahin pata hai haal tera aaj mujhko,
na tujhe meri koi jankari hai.
Puchu jo kisi aur se main; toh lagega
Haaayee kitni dooori.... hai!!! 😂

Chalo koi gal nahin, ke aaj tere paas hum nahi,
na tu mere kareeb hai
Tu jo khush hai kisi aur ke baaho me jaan,
Isi mein aaj khush hum bhi hai😌😌

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Pyaar mein
Blushing wale red cheeks se dark circles wale
din kab naseeb ho jaye
Pata hi nahin chalta.... hai na? 😂

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