and at times I catch myself
staring at my hands,
foolish enough to hope that
if i stare long enough,
your hands will suddenly happen
to wrap themselves around mine.
it's hopeless thinking.

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things you should know,
you need to know...

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the naive kind of love.

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I don't know what to do.
My heart isn't the same as it used to be.

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i lost so much this year, so far;
i lost my closest friend when i
graduated school.
i lost my friends to misunderstandings
and conflicts.
i lost my friends when they moved
away to foreign countries.
i lost my innocence
to all the cigarettes i smoked.
i lost my faith in love
with broken relationships
and broken hearts.
So now i know,
i know that
death isn't the only way to lose someone.

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'I love you', she said,
'no you don't 'cause you
know nothing about me', he replied,
'I'm just a fucked up person
who is trying
to cover his shit up
behind a fucking smile', he continued.

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without you
everyday
seems so cold
and lonely.
you were the light
on my darkest days,
and now that you're gone,
i'm left
in the darkness,
all alone.

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maybe we aren't meant
to be together,
maybe not now,
maybe not ever.
and i,
i don't wanna have
a single grain of hope,
because blessed are those
with no expectations.

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missing you
is seeing you in strangers,
reaching for a memory
that i can't remember,
for i've drowned it out
with cigarettes and alcohol,
while i stare into empty space,
searching for quiet
in a world of loud,
so that maybe
i can hear you whisper
in a way that tells me that
you miss me too.

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maybe you tasted like love because you were willing to try
maybe you held my hand because you wanted to stay close
like magnets, like bonnie and clyde, like you and me

you tasted like love but you turned me into a crime scene
cause love only tasted good with a little pain
and i've never been too good with stitches but you learn these things in heartbreak.

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