सोचा था....
जिंदगी की पूरी क़िताब तुम्हारे साथ लिखूँगी.,
पर,
तुम तो एक अध्याय की एक कहानी ही बन कर चले गए.,
सोचा था....
जहा पर भी तुम्हारा नाम हो इस किताब में.,
उन पन्नों को सुनहरे रंग की स्याही से लिखूँगी.,
पर,
स्याही अब पूरी की पूरी बेरंग हो गई.,

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कभी कभी जिस इंसान पर सबसे ज्यादा भरोसा हो,
वो ही भरोसा तोड़ देता है।
अब किस तरह से किसी पर विश्वास करे?

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How much more will you lie to me...?
You made promises but you never kept them....
I understood and supported you fully....
And blindly believed every word you said....
But now......
It hurts me even more when you gave a reason and went away.....
But now you are doing exactly the opposite of what reason you gave me....(before you left my hand....)
Is now your reason not important.?
Or was it just an excuse to walk away????
How much more were you lying?

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The day I first met you..
And held your hand,
I knew that you were the one...
Who, I would call my own..
With Whom, I would be able to talk anything..
With Whom, I could be crazy and you wouldn't judge me..
With Whom, I could share all my secrets and tell all my stories..

But....
While living all these moments......,
I never once thought,
That, You will lie to me..
That, You will be rude to me..
That, You will ignore me..
And most of all,
That, You will leave me.....!!!!

And YOU left me FOREVER....!!!!

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You left my hand in between the journey...
You went away alone...
And told me not to follow...
Was that not enough...
You wanted to be happy...
You wanted to be free....
I let you have all that...
Was that not enough...
That you now even lied to me...!
That you now even became rude to me....!

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Just like the Lotus flowers....
That Opens to the rising sun,
Staying unaffected by the muddy depths of its birth,
And,
Standing tall even in the mucky water,
That same way...,
I sustain your existence,
I sustain strength to fight in the polluted social milieu....

I rise and will always grow like a Proud Blooming Lotus......

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It is an old saying....
“Absence makes the Heart grow Fonder.”

But....

It also is an old saying....
“Out of Sight, Out of Mind.”

So then,
Is it that,
If I don't see You everyday....

You and I will Miss each other?

Or

You and I will Forget each other?

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यह कौनसी रीत है?
जब तुम्हें ज़रूरत थी,
तब एक बार भी कोई ख्याल नहीं आया मेरे मन में......
पर आज जब मुझे तुम्हारी ज़रूरत है,
एक बार भी तुमने मेरी तरफ नहीं देखा.....?
मगर अब जब कभी भी अकेली होती हूँ ,
तो बैठ कर तुम्हारे इस व्यवहार के बारे में सोचती हूँ ......
तो लगता है....
शायद, मैंने तुमसे मोहब्बत करके कोई गलती तो नहीं करी थी ना....?

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Finally.....
That Feeling of belongingness,
Completely erased from mind,
That feeling of compassion,
Completely removed from the soul,
That feeling of being called yours,
Completely forgotten,
That thought of you coming back to me,
Completely annihilated.
The final piece that held YOU,
That kept YOU attached to me....
I took it off....
That RING that held the most power,
Between YOU and Me,
I TOOK IT OFF....
And now,
Our relationship.....
Is lost FOREVER,
FINALLY......

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आज जब मुझे तुम्हारी ज़रूरत थी,
तब तुम बीच रास्ते में छोड़ कर चल दिये,
एक बार भी सोचा नहीं,
के वो जिसने तुमसे प्यार किया,
और जिससे तुम्हें प्यार था,
वो आज कैसे जी पाएगी?
तुम्हारे लिए आसान था कहना,
के अब कोई प्यार नहीं,
कोई मनोभाव नहीं मेरे लिए,
पर तुम यह भूल गए,
जब तुम्हें ज़रूरत थी,
मैंने तुम्हारा हाथ नहीं छोड़ा कभी......

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