Thanks for hurting me
while I was caressing your wounds
Thanks for stabbing me in the back
While I was busy building a fort of trust Thanks for letting me go
while I was fighting for you
Thanks for despising me
while I was busy loving you
Thanks for being the one I never wanted you to be..

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I fight for what I want, It takes a lot for me to give up on something or someone
I can't just give up because things are hard, especially if that person means something to me
I'll keep fighting and fighting until my heart becomes quiet, my soul becomes silent ,my mind become numb
my veins become frozen
my every thought got stagnant
and I have nothing left in me and giving up is the only option left

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I have never known anyone who actually believed that I was enough...........

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So finally.. I decided to go
And you didn't even try to stop me
I used to want to find an answer
but now I realised there is no need for me to ask
because when I look back every detail is actually the answer!
So finally....................
One day we'll disappear from each other worlds
forever.........

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If I left today would you be satisfied with the last conversation we had.......??

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Not a single person has fought for me to stay in their life 😅

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I'm sorry that I tried desperately to fix others, when my own hands were shaking I'm sorry I didn't give me enough time to heal, that I let me seal the wounds of everyone else whilst my own were bleeding,
I'm sorry that there were days when smiling hurt but I forced myself to laugh so that no one had to worry about me
I am sorry that I give all of my time and efforts to people that didn't give the same amount back
I'm sorry that there were nights when I cried myself to sleep and no one bothered to understand why
I am sorry I didn't love me like I deserve to be loved
Now I know I am enough to lead my life alone, enough to carry my imperfection perfectly, enough to make myself happy,
enough to say myself that I am doing good, because I have seen so much shits in my life and I have come through all odds.

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लोग बेताब थे मुझ से हाथ मिलाने के लिए,
मैंने वक्त गंवा दिया खुद से निकलने के लिए।
जिंदगी तूने जब भी गिराया है मुझे,
एक मौका तक ना दिया संभलने के लिए।
सिमट कर रखती है ये रात मुझे,
फिर सुबह घर से निकलती हूं बिखरने के लिए।
बहुत लंबा सफर तय करके आता है सूरज,
रात का निकला जनाजा दफनाने के लिए।
मैं अपने आप को नजर ना आयी एक उम्र,
मैंने मुझे ही तलाशा आइने के लिए।

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दो कदम साथ चल कर हर कोई साथ छोड़ देता है
खुशी में सब शामिल होते हैं दुख में नाता तोड़ देते हैं
किसको कहूं यकीन से अपना
वह भी वक्त के साथ मुंह मोड़ लेता है
बेगानों की महफिल में यूं तन्हा छोड़ देता है
कौन है अपना कौन है बेगाना मुश्किल है तय कर पाना
घनघोर अंधेरे में तो अपना साया भी साथ छोड़ देता है
जिंदगी हर मोड़ पर अपना रुख बदलती है
कभी नफरतों से बन जाए बेदर्द, तो कभी प्यार से पिघलती है
गम और खुशी मिलते हैं वक्त के साथ-साथ
वरना अक्सर वक्त भी साथ छोड़ देता है
किसको कहूं अपना और किसको सरीक करूं बेगानों में,
यहां तो अपना भी अपनेपन की कीमत मांग लेता है
दो कदम साथ चल कर हर कोई साथ छोड़ देता है।

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Don't mistake my silence with my incapability to speak
Yes I get hurt but I don't say it
yes I think twice before messaging anyone
I feel guilty when I hurt someone
I don't like to talk first whenever I fight with someone
But I try just because I want that person in my life more than my urge to win
I do feel ignored when the other person forget to reply Don't dare to take me for granted just because I don't say anything
Because if you'll take this for granted then sooner or later you will lose everything that you have.

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