i’ll never forgive you what you did to my head

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i know this world now
i no longer follow the part that is filled with confusion
i used to be there
i have my own voice now
she speaks now
i’m getting better
i understand now
i feel so full
for once i can say
i feel filled
with happiness
the world passes me by
and i have nothing to say
i am still
i don’t ask anymore
i know god is with me now
i’m old now
i’m old and know god

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meeting the world again after so much time has passed
i missed you
you know that right?

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i have felt your abuse
with your knowing
it is now
that i let the glory go
of showing off

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my hair falls
long-lost lovers
to never be seen again
what is it worth
this
life

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sometimes
when im left alone with myself
i feel hopeful
i walk with more purpose
i try to make myself look like an important person
but i dont matter

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i want to be loved
fearlessly
endlessly
joyously
i want you to lift my hips
and i breathe out the hurt that compresses inside of me
my head pushing deeper and deeper
into the soft blankets
take me
take me
take me
my heart running with yours
my toes curling
anticipation building
your eyes find me
your finger tips travel through my landscapes
do you like where youve fallen
who youve fallen
into
yes
yes
yes
yes
be the fire burning inside of me
even if i have to be your embers
your tongue tracing
the body that lives
and i feel so
alive
i kiss your scars
as you kiss mine
our foreheads meet
i feel my life
i feel yours
we must’ve met before
your spirit your soul
please do not leave
me
for something more
i hate that now youve stolen me
maybe i want something more
too

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i hope i never see your face again
i hope we never
cross
paths
forget my words
forget my skin
forget my heart
forget everything
you dont deserve even the memory
of
me
i hate you
and i hope i never
get
the
chance
to
say
it
to

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to live in another
why must i be trapped
binded
tightened
scorched
i was running far away
and nobody even knows

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finger tips caressing dandelions
trees that tell stories of time long ago
an orchestra of gaia
violins of chartreuse
cellos of deep blues
winds for winds
conducted by an artist with no signature
that i had fallen into
when i had forgotten the day
maybe it was a tree trunk
or a skunk
hidden behind a forest canopy
a meadow i found
my back against the warm-greens that hug me
with no foxes or bears
i smile with myself
i have found company where I couldn’t
a place that a foot would never step too hard
a voice would never heighten
that eyes would never forget
and a storm minds its manners
where my mind wanders
and it tells me it won’t stray too far
that time sits with me
and i don’t mind him

did you take me here

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