I'm drowned in the ocean of thoughts these days,
When things go wrong, do they leave or stays?

Let him go and leave, my brain screams hard.
You don't deserve the pain, your love needs reward.

You hammer the wound, but you hoped and suffered.
The pain makes you stay? Or bandage he didn't offered?

You tried new dress, and you did your hair well;
To get his compliment, but it didn't ring his bell.

Didn't others called you pretty? Didn't they like your story?
Don't you look into the mirror! Don't downgrade your glory.

But my heart cries in pain, it demands to be held.
To be patted, to be fondle, it screamed loud and yelled -

Why can't I be loved? Like I love someone flattered.
Is it too easy for them? To come and leave shattered?

But that's not his fault i guess, he just don't carry that feeling;
Even if she wins him tomorrow, I cannot call that stealing.

So what's left in the case? Pluck my heart & spin a throw?
For the poor heart to be kept safe, It is must to let him go!

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One day in near future, you'd attend my funeral
All the flowers withered & all the cries musical.

You couldn't breathe and hence, you take back the steps
Only to stop at my house & decipher all the webs!

Filled with darken silence, my room smells like mint
All the curtains drawn, Agony flowing in wind!

Switching on the lighting, your eyes fell on the table;
Where all my writings lied, with your name written as label.

And as you're turning pages, it was all I never said.
The haze is getting clear, it was all you never cared.

You did a promise broken, now you weep & sob & cry
But I just wanted you, and you didn't even try!

You wish to touch me soft, but now I'm gone too far.
For you to hold & love, I'm now a shining star.

I wish you best my love, go build a palace with her;
Just never you call her; please, the nickname I always preferred!

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I have my writings kept
For the days I weave in head
When its no longer the autumn
& we tied in springs of thread!

I see I'm jotting letter to you
Writing you like I always knew
& you put them in your almirah
to pick and read when we argue!

So many years hunting on prey
Your birthday is gone, mine otw
Oh it flashes when u wished me last
Youu wish me next, that all I pray!

Life isn't smooth, there's only rush
Somedays to ponder, somedays to discuss
They say universe makes it work
Love, Can you hold on to Us?

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Just like an idolised perfect women,
a bitch is also a God's Creation.
Sometimes you gotta be that too!

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"Well I met a Prince Charming
Ohh he's love & he's Darling
Sweeping in my life like a Master
He dropped no alarms; no warning.

He's my Saviour & I'm his Queen
Never slept together but saw a Dream
In a castle we build, we live cheery
We're the goals, blessed by Supreme.

So what if he suffer Mood Swings?
Ghosts me, Ignores me & Sourness he brings
He's mine to tolerate, He's mine to bear
Autumn someday, someday he's spring"

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HER LAST WALK

She's Broken
with her pieces shattered
having no one to rebuild
& no hopes to be better.

She's tired
she wants to vent
& tell you "I am in plight"
before you say - She went.

What language does she speak?
What story does she talk?
decipher; coz to you
she would take her last walk.

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मोहब्बत से अपनी मुझे रिहाई देदी उसने,
मोहब्बत को ज़ख्म कहा और दवाई देदी उसने।

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एक ख्वाब-सा मैंने देखा है, वो कदम लौटते आते हैं।
सौ फूल खिले फुलवारी में, भँवरे भी पर मंडराते हैं।
सौंधी सी धूप है आंगन में, फिर बादल से घिर जाते हैं।
सीने की अगन सावन में बुझे, कुछ मौसम के भी इरादे हैं।
नजदीक हैं वो; कुछ रुठे से, हम भी कई रंग दिखाते हैं।
तब हाथ पकड़, मासूम से वो; मनाते हैं मुस्काते हैं।
सर मेरा उन कांधों पर है, संग हम ईश्वर को सुहाते हैं।
एक ख्वाब-सा मैंने देखा है, वह कदम लौटते आते हैं।

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