What if you are too afraid to let love in
Cos you have seen everything in ruins
To broken or to break a heart
Couldn't figure which one
Rips the soul more apart

Maybe love ruined itself
And friendship sabotaged
Don't know how to handle
The waves catching offgaurd

Distancing from people
When they care much
And crave that soul
Who will never be
Careful enough to not
Break that fragile heart

To Wallow in sorrow
Feeling nothing but hollow
Hanging on to last thread
Letting it go is painful
And holding it is too

What's the point of everything
When pain is the only destination
You are reaching to.

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I keep tracing my footprints
Back to your memories
Where you seem happy
And maybe i was too
To be honest
It all feels empty
Maybe it's me and
Not those memories

You know i kept looking
For love in you
And that's the reason
Your every casual or
Not-so-thoughtful act
Bothered me
Well i know you shouldn't care
Its not like you made any promises

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3:30 am, eyes wide open .... Not waiting for the sun to come up or to crawl into darkness. Just awake.

"Yahin hu main ,kahi na gya tujhe chor k main" plays in the background. The words sink deep into my heart , sobbing and smiling because it was all worth. Your presence made me fall in love and absence taught how to love , not in bits or parts but a whole . Embracing the proximity felt between souls who don't even need words , eyes talk enough when they speak the same language. The soul that craves just a smile and shimmer in eyes. 

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I don't know what I am
A flower that withers with time
Or a plant that grows
A rainbow that shines
Or a scar that fades with time
Calm in chaos for someone
Or a chaos myself

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dark tunnels and open skies. I see the drizzling rain through the glass window craving it's touch and afraid to be drenched at the same time. It's not that simple. The people around are playing charades , dancing and singing , with a carefree look on their face. I just stare through the window with a blank face and a million thoughts inside me. A million things can go wrong but just one thing : hope is keeping me from falling apart.

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1. Expecting from people to understand me or give me time (now it's totally okay if I don't get a text back, you are busy it's okay I will find better things too).

2. I don't let flashbacks overtake me ( I will start thinking and I will be like it's already happened so shut it and move on)

3. Care too much (now I care a little less about everything , taking life at my own pace and I don't need to explain my life choices to others.)

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Beeti baatein na yaad karo 
Jo bhul chuk hui maaf karo 
Kyu baithe ho giraft main ateet ke
Aaj khud ko azad karo

Zehen Mai Kyu uska khyal rakhte ho
Khud ko Kyu pareshaan krte ho 
Kaid apni khusiyon ko 
Azad kyu nahi krte ho

Arso purani baat dil mai 
Jo dafn kar rakhi hai 
Rosh ka naqab odh
Taaklefe Kyu dhak rakhi hai 
Azadi tumhare kareeb hi khadi hai

Duniya ko kosste rahoge kab tak
Mila kya tumhe isse ab tak 
Maafi nahi maangi jinhone ab tak
Unko bhi maaf krte hai
Azadi intezar kregi tmhara kab Tak

Kuch sapne tumse toot gye
Tum khud se Kyu rooth gye
Zindagi baahen failaye khaadi hai
Tum kadam badhao toh sahi
Ek baar azadi mehsoos krke dekho toh sahi

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जब मन आओगे फिर
बिना बताए चले जाओगे
याद नहीं आती है तुम्हे क्या

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my mother's tears (that's heartache and actually I feel helpless)

When people I care a lot about leave (nobody stays forever ,so learning to be strong enough)

People misinterpreting my words without any reason ( it really bothers me at times a LOT , but people think what they want to think and if they aren't willing to understand me then why should I even try , so Learning to ignore them)

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Kadr bhi seekhenge log
Bas kabr Mai jaane k baad

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