Before Dawn

Up before dawn,
Before all this was tainted.
Before this world grew sick,
Before our eyes were painted.
Hands clean no stains,
The last of what remains.

We toil on endlessly,
Endless pain.
Endless wisdom endless gain,
Endless mercy,
But don’t use it vain.

Endless highways endless lanes,
We follow the one who paved the way.
We kneel and we pray,
Show me the morning before this world turned gray.

Show me the way,
What is the world of clay?
What is this soulless world,
That keeps love at bay.
Wake up before dawn on my knees to pray,
I beg you to take it away.

Show me Lord,
Show me truly.
Show me a world where you are ruling,
Up before dawn and this world is grueling.
Show me Lord,
How I can do it.

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Living for God

My body aches,
My soul trembles and shakes.
I have so many more strongholds left to break,
But living for God isn’t a mistake.
I’m tired and poor,
Sometimes I feel like I can’t do it anymore;
But God always makes a way.
I wish I had all the answers,
But I settle for a few.
I focus on the things I can do,
I know God has my back through and through.
The darkness in the world breaks my heart,
But my father fixes what’s broken.
He had it all planned,
Before I had ever spoken.
He knows my suffering,
And it isn’t in vain.
So I accept all of the pain,
Living for God Is not a mistake.

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satan is a liar

When you’re born in a house on fire,
You don’t realize satan is a liar.
You can’t see the master plan he’s conspired,
He wants you hardwired.
He wants your mind tainted,
Brain painted an ugly shade of grey.
When he knows your identity is swayed,
And the love that you feel is delayed.
With your heart is being played,
satan saw the game.
He checked your mate,
He worked overtime making sure to decide your fate.
And maybe you believed him some days,
Maybe you believed you’d never see great things.
But God had other plans,
And his truth triumphs over lies.
He is waiting outside,
Outside of the box you’ve been living in.
He’s ready to help you start again,
He’s ready to cleanse you of your sin.
He’s ready for you to see again,
Refined by fire I let him in.
I didn’t let the devil win,
The most high is omniscient.
I cling to him like smoke to a fire,
I know satan is a liar.

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The Fathers Love

It’s the kind of love most people miss out on,
When they’re staring in the dark wishing the light was on.
Not realizing the dark is the same as the light,
My God will love you in the day or the night.
He loves the ones who are willing to fight,
I begged for this kind of love my whole life.
A God sized hole almost consumed it all,
But he scooped me up right before the fall.
He filled my heart, he filled it to the brim,
He gave me hope and respite from my sin.
Please don’t miss out on the Fathers love,
This kind of feeling only comes from above.

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Thirsty

God I am nothing without you,
What other god could say he knit me in my mother’s womb?
You know me more than I’ll ever know you.
You know every burden trial and joy I’ve been through.
I can’t explain how much I love you,
And how I know I could never take one step without your love.
You keep me looking up,
You keep me showing up.
This water I’ve been so thirsty for,
I don’t have to be thirsty anymore.
You give me unlimited sips,
I couldn’t bare to take a gulp.
But you keep my cup full,
You charge me up in my soul.
So I cling to your promise forevermore,
My cup runneth over forevermore.

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Like a Lion

I was a lioness running with her pride,
I looked up and I saw you.
There was kindness in your piercing blue eyes,
You were fierce and staggering.
You were soft to my surprise,
You ran with me by my side.

He gives me visions while I sleep,
Before I lay my head down,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep.
And I pray that he speaks,
In my dreams I run free.
In my sleep he shows me,
All that I am and will be.
Like a Lion,
He has set my heart free.

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Endure

How much can we endure,
That is the true question.
How many times will we repeat the same lessons?
How many times will we ignore our blessings?
I’m guilty of it too,
God I’m confessing.
This world is so depressing,
And I was born a mess.
I cling to your promise like a baby to their mom,
How long until this pain is gone?
Lord I am tired and I am weak,
Give me the strength to simply be.
Your spirit is all I need,
I prophesy in my dreams.
God when will we be free?
I see the fruit on the tree,
It looks delicious I agree.
But the spirit is living in me,
How much can we endure,
Until he knocks on the door?
I press on,
I endure.

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Slow Burn

It was a slow burn,
But she knew it was her turn.
To stop living in the shadows,
To stop letting the darkness return.
To stop believing what she heard,
To learn to let the heart yearn.

His ways are not my ways,
His time moves infinitely.
I’ll swim against the culture,
I’ll live indefinitely.
I’ll cry out to my father,
When I am hurting.

The burn has engulfed me,
In the flames I’m set apart.
I’ll endure the fire,
I’ll be the light on a hill.
I’ll walk with joy in my heart,
I’ll drink my fill.

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The Unknowing

I hope someday you figure it out,
I hope you see the spark in me that kept me going.
How I always knew that there is an unknowing,
Something our minds can’t understand.
A flame that has been fanned,
I hope you’ll see the spirit and not the man.
I hope someday you’ll see his plan,
I hope you see why I ran.
I ran away from my destruction,
I hope you know I hold no judgement.
I’m not qualified to run this race,
But Jesus paid my price and set the pace.
I hope you know he sees your face,
And he loves you;
Just like I do.

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Refined

Hurt people hurt people,
A start of a cycle.
The enemy opens the door,
And begs to stay awhile.
It’s the lies he whispers,
That tempt me to spiral.
But these chains are breaking,
I am being refined by fire.
It burns my sin and shame,
It burns my earthly name.
It burns every tie,
Because Jesus took the blame.
So even when it burns,
I surrender to the flame.
Hurt people hurt people,
The cycle ends today.

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