I've always had this unhinged feeling
the air's going in and out
but I'm not breathing

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it’s cold outside.
i can’t help but think of the time
when you sat beside
wrapping me with your favourite blanket
with colors oh so bright!

you turned the gray outside
with your arms around me
two mugs filled with chai
you read my mind

at the terrace i remember
you made your own constellations
somewhere in the middle of december
a ‘no reason’ celebration

the hesitation in your voice
you held my hand
and called me ‘mine’

i didn’t realise
when that silent night
became the chirpy morning
and well that mug of chai
still sits in my kitchen
as the symbol of our forevermore

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tell me something?
has the sky always been this beautiful?
had the birds always been this happy?
has the sun always been this bright?
was there always so much light?

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promise me you’ll be my peace
a place where my mind breathes

promise me you’ll hold my hand in the round about
while i search for my way out

promise me you’ll hold the lamp
when i get stuck in a dark abyss

promise me you be there
but not just for the sake of being there

promise me we’ll come out of gray
and that it’ll be okay

promise?

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will you hold me?
when i fall apart

will you touch me?
when when i feel abandoned

will you love me?
when i couldn’t love me

will you?

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i feel so weird
looking at those big buildings, shiny screens
construction sites and science researches
they got me thinking
how far we have come?
how far we still have to go?

my problems are nothing
in front of the real world miseries
it got me thinking
how’s the man with big glasses feeling?
what’s the woman with the black bag searching?

i feel so tiny
looking at the fast pace world
they got me thinking
do they ever stop?
do they ever look around?
to count the places they have been
to see the sky colors changing

i feel so slow
looking at unstoppable time
it got me thinking
will everyone have to cope up?
will it be okay to cease?

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oh these drops
these cool tiny drops
are you really coming from heaven?
did god send you
to make the flowers more graceful

oh the wind
the crazy peaceful wind
are you really coming from afar?
well aren’t you tired going everywhere
just to make people forget their internal wars

oh the rain
the beautiful soothing rain
is that really true?
that you bring the happiness
which has drained

oh the monsoon
the calming cozy monsoon

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if only one could read my mind
see me try
then know how everyday i die

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with you gone
it's hard for me now
to ever write
to ever draw
as you left
it's painful for me now
to ever smile
to ever believe
your little tips and tricks to live life
those moments of us wrapped in light
is lost in the loneliness
leaving silence and numbness behind
but you know what
i am gonna be fine
we were never better together
as your last words to me:
"obvio! it's gonna be fine
if we don't talk ever"

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talk to the moon
i’m sure he talks back
for all those pretty dreams
and unplanned smiles
i blame him

cry in the rain
i’m sure it understands
all my precious moments
and silent cries
i had with it

count the stars
i’m sure they bring peace
twinkling in the sky
they have seen more than you and me
the hope in someone’s eyes
and their dead lovers in them they see

turn to the sky
i’m sure it’ll make you smile
with it’s infinite colors
and intense depth
let your eyes play around cloud lines
that’s how i lost my miseries

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