I've always had this unhinged feeling
the air's going in and out
but I'm not breathing

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tell me something?
has the sky always been this beautiful?
had the birds always been this happy?
has the sun always been this bright?
was there always so much light?

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रस्ता बदलने से पहले
वादा करना है तुम्हे
कि वापस मिलना है हमें

दूर जाने से पहले
इस अलविदा से पहले
एक आखिरी बार कहना तुम्हे
थक जाए जो हम कभी
तो हाथ थामने आना है तुम्हे।

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ना तुझसा, ना तुझसे बेहतर चाहिए
मुझे तो बस तू चाहिए

आज हो या कई साल बाद
मुझे तो बस तेरा ही साथ चाहिए

अब तू इसे मेरी जिद समझ या जरूरत
एक खवाब सा है तू
जो मुझे हकीकत में चाहिए

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it’s cold outside.
i can’t help but think of the time
when you sat beside
wrapping me with your favourite blanket
with colors oh so bright!

you turned the gray outside
with your arms around me
two mugs filled with chai
you read my mind

at the terrace i remember
you made your own constellations
somewhere in the middle of december
a ‘no reason’ celebration

the hesitation in your voice
you held my hand
and called me ‘mine’

i didn’t realise
when that silent night
became the chirpy morning
and well that mug of chai
still sits in my kitchen
as the symbol of our forevermore

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promise me you’ll be my peace
a place where my mind breathes

promise me you’ll hold my hand in the round about
while i search for my way out

promise me you’ll hold the lamp
when i get stuck in a dark abyss

promise me you be there
but not just for the sake of being there

promise me we’ll come out of gray
and that it’ll be okay

promise?

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will you hold me?
when i fall apart

will you touch me?
when when i feel abandoned

will you love me?
when i couldn’t love me

will you?

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i feel so weird
looking at those big buildings, shiny screens
construction sites and science researches
they got me thinking
how far we have come?
how far we still have to go?

my problems are nothing
in front of the real world miseries
it got me thinking
how’s the man with big glasses feeling?
what’s the woman with the black bag searching?

i feel so tiny
looking at the fast pace world
they got me thinking
do they ever stop?
do they ever look around?
to count the places they have been
to see the sky colors changing

i feel so slow
looking at unstoppable time
it got me thinking
will everyone have to cope up?
will it be okay to cease?

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oh these drops
these cool tiny drops
are you really coming from heaven?
did god send you
to make the flowers more graceful

oh the wind
the crazy peaceful wind
are you really coming from afar?
well aren’t you tired going everywhere
just to make people forget their internal wars

oh the rain
the beautiful soothing rain
is that really true?
that you bring the happiness
which has drained

oh the monsoon
the calming cozy monsoon

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if only one could read my mind
see me try
then know how everyday i die

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