FOOLISHNESS
He looks for love in the pages of novels and in the scenes of romance films, because he does not have anyone to love for himself. He reads old and lost poetry and listens to heartbreak songs to prove the only fact that love hurts.
He hangs on the premise of stories and the fairytales of others to hear what it sounds like to be in love.
He returns to the same location daily where he felt the most love, hoping, praying, wishing for that love to find him once more. Hoping for that long lost love to rescue him, but just as the sun rises and the moon falls, the love never sets at all.
Strong is he that waits even without seeing results, for foolishness is his reward and pity is his footstool. "She left and she is never coming back", they told him. Too stubborn to hear, he blocks them off, waiting, simply waiting for his lover to prove them wrong.-
For a moment there I felt peace.
I felt my world finally stable.
For a moment there I felt joy.
A scarce feeling now gone.
For a moment there I felt love.
A bitter sweet taste now eroded.
It was beginning to feel like summer
Where the sun shines, kids play, and all is somewhat right with the world.
My summer shattered and turned to autumn.
My leaves fell, not from the seasons.
But from the crumbles of my heart.
My autumn turned to winter.
Where I was left on ice.
Felt like death's cold kiss.
My feelings plummeted below 0 degrees.
I felt numb. I was left stagnant.
Like the still waters that do not ripple or wave.
I began to ask.
Was I enough?
Would I give so much only to get rejected?
Was I truly enough to give?
Was my heart too little to offer?
As if pieces of my heart were pedals that formed an incomplete flower.
Was my love an insignificant part of me?
Would I change myself? Would I tell you everything?, and I wouldn't still be enough?
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Thank you for the break ups.
Thank you for the make ups.
I apologise for the needless fights,
I apologise for the lonely nights.
All I ask is for you to unlove me.
Remove the burdens from your chest.
Unbind the chains from your heart.
Leave me be, for I do not deserve love.
Neither do I deserve your fragile heart.
I will break it into tiny unfixable pieces.
I will lose your trust before I ever had it.
Allow me to love the stars in the night.
For what I deserve is their cold and dark emptiness.
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You
Even if I can’t come up with anything,
Even if there are no lyrics of words on my book,
I still have so much to say, so much to let you know. But how will I do it your help? You inspire me because I confide in you. You make me feel loved in the worst of times. You’re my medicine in sickness, my joy in sadness. You make me do things I won’t normally do. Your God sent.
That’s why I literally can’t live without you.
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Had you
And I used to be in my head, passed all the mistakes I made and I used to say things I wouldn’t do, I say things I couldn’t prove cus I know things were different when I had you.-
Things start, things end, somethings don’t last, somethings do. Life isn’t as assured as it can be. We are all living to die. So why don’t we let peace and love rule, so we can remember the good parts when it’s almost over
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