She said:

"Maybe I am not really meant for love.
It was painful. Painful to see you sitting right across from me and not being able to touch you. Talk to you. Look at you.  Smile at you. Hug you. Kiss you.
It hurt. It hurt my gut. I placed my eyes upon you, accidently, and my heart dropped. I thought of how sad this is. How I wish I could just tease you again. Hold you again. Put my lips on your heavingly lips again, bite your lower lip. Again. Have your hand caress my face, and neck with tenderness as you wholly devour my lips giving me a taste of your love. Again."

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I might have pulled the plug on us.
But darling, I had to let go...
when I realized there was nothing left to hold on to.
I had to save myself from drowning
and hitting oceans deep.
That was the least I could for myself.

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People lose people. Either to death, to someone else, or to hurt. Love fades, promises break, hearts ache and minds change. But at the end of the day, we never give up. Even when we think it's over. Even when we don't have faith in the universe, or in the goodness of the people anymore. Even when we know we might get hurt again. I think hope is inevitable because the slightest shred of it, gets through a small crack in our souls. A crack we subconsciously have. It's just how we are wired. And this is healthy, because if we sincerely didn't have hope, we would lose our humanity. And the world would get ugly.

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It's ironic how you used to enclose the hole in my heart with tenderness,
 and now you're the reason it's reopened.
The reason it bleeds again
 and makes me crumple with pain.

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Pain is inevitable, but it's also the real Buddha in your life. Teaches you how to handle life in its shittiest forms. It teaches you to be responsible for how you respond to hurt. Teaches you to be ready for whichever rock they throw at you.

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Be proud of your scars, because each one of them has its own story. Emotional scars are the fuel for your strength and betterment. Show them off while you wear your heart on your sleeves.

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And foggy was the night she realized it was a mistake. All of it. So many words were left unsaid and so many feelings were hanging in the air. The uncomfortable silence was breaking her to the core. This extreme absurdness between them made her want to disappear. She sighed and looked outside the window. She smiled as she remembered all of the other late night drives they had and how alive she felt back then. And how that didn't last for long. How she had her heart sink everytime she heard his name... how she's still trying to lift her heart nd soul up from the ground.

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People lose people. Either to death, to someone else, or to hurt. Love fades, promises break, hearts ache and minds change. But at the end of the day, we never give up. We never give up in life and in love. Even when we think it's over. Even when we don't have faith in the universe, or in the goodness of the people anymore. Even when we know we might get hurt again. I think hope is unevitable because the slightest shred of it, gets through a small crack in our souls. A crack we subconsciously have. It's just how we are wired. And this is healthy, because if we genuinely didn't have that, we would lose our humanity and the world would get ugly.

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I might have pulled the plug on us. But darling, I had to let go when I realized there was nothing left to stay for. I had to save myself from drowning and hitting oceans deep... That was the least I could do for myself.

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And now, you're just a stranger that I used to know.

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