I know that it's been long,
My heart has become tough
But it still loves you
Is it wrong?

l accept you're not fated to be mine
There's no doubt in it.
but I still wish for you
Is it wrong?

Watching you from far far away, It smiles
it fears going closer to you, Carrying you In your pictures In lonely nights when eyes become teary
Then What to do(x2)
Whom do I say
What do I do?

I agree that your smile is just like a moon during daylight.

I wish to meet the strangles of your hair
today, again
How to stay far from you?
Now that l've loved you
How to love someone else?

Hiding behind all your memories
In lonely nights when eyes become teary
Then what to do
Whom to say or share ?
What do I do?

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Final Words to the Person I loved.






Read the caption!

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मैं आज फिर से उसके शहर हो आया हूँ,
आज फिर से उसकी याद आयी है!

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सुना है जो वादा तुमने मेरे साथ किया था उसे किसी और के साथ निभा रही हो, सच में प्यार हुआ है दीदी या उसको भी चुतीया बना रही हो? 🙃

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"हम सीखेंगे"

बदनाम तो बहुत हुए हैं, अब नाम कमाना सीखेंगे!

खुद से आँख चुरा कर बहुत जिये हम, अब गर्व से जीना सीखेंगे

यूँ तो सारी उम्र अय्याश की तरह गुजार दिया हमने, अब समय बचाना सीखेंगे!

*अनदेखा तो कई बार हुए हम, अब अनदेखा करना सीखेंगे!*

जिंदगी बचपने में गुजार दी हमने, अब परिपक्व बनना सीखेंगे!
लोगों का सहारा बहुत बने हम, अब खुद का सहारा बनना सीखेंगे!

उनको खो कर बहुत रोए हम, अब उनकी यादों को नज्म बनाना सीखेंगे!
प्यार तो बहुत किया था उनसे, अब खुद से प्यार करना सीखेंगे!

उन्होंने बहुत अनदेखा किया हमें, अब उनको अनदेखा करना सीखेंगे!

अपने आंसू पोंछ - पोंछ कर, खुद का हमदर्द बनना सीखेंगे!

दूसरों के सहारे बहुत जिए हम, अब खुद पे पैरों पे खड़ा होना सीखेंगे!

मर-मर के बहुत जिए हम, अब सच में जीना सीखेंगे!

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Part of me wanna Run away,
Part of me wants to Stay.
Part of me thinks its all over, Part of me thinks it's *Fresh Start.*

Part of me just wants to Run, Part of me wants to Think Slow.

Part of me(Heart) says to Be what it want,
Part of me says to be Yourself.

Part of my heart says to be what it *Deeply Aspires*

I don't know what i am thinking and if i am
thinking Right or Wrong,
But trust me, you can't be always right and I can't be always wrong.

Part of me thinks there is No Option, Part of me says that you are not seeing Optimistically.
There are plenty of options.

Part of me wanna Drown underwater, Part of me wanna Swim and face the sun.

Part of me tries to Work according to them,
Part of me Screams Enough is Enough.

Part of me wants to Pluck that Flower, Part of me wanna watch it grow.

I dont know what i am thinking and if I am
thinking Right or Wrong
But trust me Dear,You can't be Always Right I can't be always wrong.

Part of me wants to see everybody Happy
Part of me asks Whether I Am is happy?

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You know Brother, this is about you, about us,our friendship and bond.
You'll be missed forever and ever.

Someday.
These things just happens.
One comes and just says-I can't be there with You always,
I can't give u that sunshine.
I can't fight for You,
I can't shine for You,
Unkonwn of the fact that
He just wants to walk the journey of this life with that person rather expecting him to get his to the destination.
That confusion between his mind and heart Just broke the most beautiful bond they ever had.

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Somebody asked me today :- "What if you left with no one, literally no one.
How will you survive?"

My reply was simple as fuck-"My boys, it's life and it never stops for anyone, I'm living without my father from past years and I'm still surviving and I'll survive for sure.
If my all friends left me I'll still left with my own self and I have self belief that I am enough for me most of the time
I'd rather become more strong than a weak person.
You're your best friend and that's the fkin reality my boy.
Though I have the ability, communication skills, personality, knowledge to rebuild my empire/circle and I'll make new friends again.
Actually I already made several from internet and most of them are from Mensutra community and Abroad.
I'd rather prefer to live alone than being with someone I don't feel connected and trust me my boy, my genuine friend will never leave me for sure.
I trust them. And the one who are suppose to left was never mine, I won't feel sad for them.

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"Memories, Love and expectations"

Once there was a girl whom I used to love profoundly, my love for her was so deep that I used to wait for her call for whole day.
I remember Jio provided me 3k free minutes and out of 3k I spent 2.3k minutes with her, which is the highest of my life.
I do remember our late night phone calls based on life and learnings.
I remember how she used to sleep while hearing to my voice.
Now the situations are totally adverse and we don't talk anymore.
During those time I couldn't imagine my life without her, yes I was stupid and maybe still am.
But yes, it is true that I've successfully moved on, although it took several months but finally succeeded.
I'm writing all these to let you know that sometimes you're your best companion and you ought not look for anybody else to complete yourself.
The addiction to a person is way more dangerous than drugs, It can make your life vulnerable.
Fault wasn't her but mine, I expected her to remain my friend till the end and my another mistake was that not to express my love to her because of fear.
I'd suggest you if you truly love someone then express your love and don't keep it to yourself.
Beware of one sided love

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It's really sucks to see whole world
progressing In tront of your eyes while
your own progress is steady as hell.
Even one bad decision can totally ruin
your life and I'm completely bad at
decision making.
Growing old with blurry or unclear
dreams seems fo be nightmare to me.
When I tocus on work my mental and physical health starts getting
deteriorate.
I really don't know what to do and how
to handle and overcome this.
I know all my flaws but can't work.

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