the engima to satiate desire,
And expectation that grows
rampant as unbridled fire
surging through the deepest pits
Of hell forged on its own,
Kindled by silly dinky bits of wits,
Slightest of whims until they've full blown.

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Cacophony and incessant wails,
Paranoia, anguish with words well maligned,
When last shard of patience fails
And thoughts viciously unwind
the worst case scenarios, utterly off the rails
Throwing me to the wolf of mind,
so feral and unkind,
To feast on my darken soul leaving gloomy trails.

And before I know, sprouted are words which I don't mean
Just to sheath sincere feelings behind rude scene
Though Underneath it all, reach out and help ,
That's all my heart hysterically yell,
Yet no one harks and no one even cares enough
At the end, for the world,
I am just a crybaby-futile and scruff.

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Sea and the moon

Without enough sleep
On a stellar nighttide,
Zealous sea rose
With brimming hope
To caress his love
Just this once
Though devoid of chance
Without any romance
Sea fell, yet again
From his trance.
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There is no tomorrow.
If I could, every minute of the time
I will anyhow borrow
From God, from science,
It just doesn't matter
With you, my sweet!
Life is exceptionally better.
You are the smile on my face,
Shimmer of dreamy eyes,
The Center of my universe,
And trust me sweet, I ain't lying
If only you felt the same,
The way I do,
If I could be that luster
to your clueless dew,
One glistening under sun
trailing the cosy mist,
Lying there on rose,
Blushing red as they kissed.
If only you could profess how you feel,
All your love and all you have to share.
Darling!! I think you know it too,
What we have here is just very rare.

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Nothing hurts more than
Being stranded in that dark trench
Dug out of my deepest horrors,
Where vile thoughts viciously slaughters
The valley of flowers, all rays of hope.
How do I live this life? how do I cope?

Inch by inch into my prosy skin
Are the pests of anxiety crawling in.
Not so far are anguish and gloom
Ready to pounce, surmising my doom.
Slopes are closing in, trapping me more
In the abyss of loneliness which I abhor.

Doubts and loathe are prancing around,
I want to scream but there comes no sound.
But then what's the point, even if someone had heard?
For them, these are just words, worthless and absurd.

"Collect yourself, you dummy, else you'll be adrift
Leave this hell behind and be very swift.
The more you think, the more it hurts",
Somewhere inside, my sanity asserts.
Out of this reverie now, I'm a bit relieved.
Though I'm composed today
yet who's to say,
that what if one day
It leaves me utterly bereaved.

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Then you'll find
all that has kept you
restless at night-
The mysteries of life,
the blues and glee,
beyond that facade
you once so sternly hold
to be the true self,
ahead of the doubts
which hindered the way
to your success,
past greed and tempts,
behind anger and dreads.
Amidst the calm and glee,
utterly surreal and free,
you will find this place
hidden somewhere deep-
A dwell so serene-
all you need to do is to look inward
As I am you and you are me.

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I sat there with tears rolling down my cheek,
Trying to figure out, what exactly do I seek
from this relationship, from you, my sweet,
Our expectations from each other, why don't they meet?
How can we be on such a different stratum of emotions?
Why can't we even-steven it all with similar notions?
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Sheathing essence of moonlight
Behind the dense veil of mist
Adding the chills as a twist
Slow ones albeit, but still enough
To call the fading autumn's bluff
Of eternal warmth and fallen green
With a tint of yellow and tangerine.
Dew drips over long arid sprigs,
Droopy leaves, fragile twigs.
Even mightiest of trees aren't spared,
More stout as if they are dared
To withstand the upcoming breeze
Carrying the promise to promptly freeze
All that lies in its expansive way
Followed by longer night and shorter day
Soon, flashing white will be donned
By the hills, where it snowed
There's lot more in nature's store
When the winter is on the earth's door.

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When did it start? I can't recall,
Dreadful tower of annoyance,
Now standing few feet tall
With current running through fence
Eager to burn crisp if those people crawl
Who built it at the high expense
Of inner peace, my mind's sacred hall.

With every word I hear, it's getting tense,
One moment closer to begin a brawl
Within myself which no one can sense.
Brick by brick, grows the wall,
That once supposed to be my defense
Is turning to a dark, angry stall.
"Leave me alone, are you dense?
Find somewhere else to sprawl
Aren't you fed up with this pretense?
Let's end it here once and for all"
I wish these words would dispense
Out it the open to free me from this thrall.
If only I could convey, even if just for once
what I want and whenever I want to all.

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Deep water

As the sun sets and now it's cold,
Burn recedes and I regain control
Or at least strive with all the might to hold
And overlook sharks of doubts churning visibly in my soul.

Abyss and black captures my deepest pit
even the blazing red dot is scared to hit,
A face too dreadful to admit
That no one left anymore to quit.

Camouflaged with the friends I reconcile,
Glistened is the surface and sometime colorful are the smiles
Of rainbow reflected over hundreds or thousands of miles
Sheathing the depth which desolation mockingly defiles.

Forlorn, I enter willingly to the arms of night
With trill of toads and the exotic sights
of chorus of cheerful robins taking flight
And singing cheerful lullabies unfazed of height.
And soon I glamour myself with jwellery of starlight
With moon at heart to calm my ripple, to soothe my mind.
And With wind caressing my face, I sleep with blissful delight.

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