Here I am
Trying to change
Emotions into words
So it reaches you
Because voices
Don't seem to.

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To a place I Belong

Obscured by a blizzard so strong 
In search of a place where I belong 
For I see no familiar radiance 
Surrounding me, there's just silence
Where I linger for affection for so long
This can't be a place where I belong 

Vanished in a verdant jungle, I hear a song
Emerging from a place where I belong 
I'm still blinded by the canopy of leaves
The core of my being, in anguish, grieves 
Attempting to uncover what is wrong 
Why can't I find that place where I belong!

All my soul demands is a furnace so warm
That it's gentleness brings hope along
And lead me to a place where I belong.

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Why is it so tough 
For you, to hear my screams?
When i try to get it, it seems
That I'm not loud enough 
With my desperate pleas
Or Maybe you're just far,
Farther than my dreams .

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Faith in Sand

I remember when , at an age of innocence
I built castles, caves and towers for defence
All made of sand, imagination and lies
Because building them with such elegance
Hid the possibilities of its future consequence 

It was unrealistic, fabricated and fictitious
And yet so magestic splendid and glorious 
That I could have lived there for eternity
Fantasizing that I have been victorious
But fate's plan was strangely mysterious

With a blink of an eye the towers fell apart
It was gone - My precious piece of art
Scattered, dispersed and turned to dust 
It's disappearance painfully broke my heart
I couldn't have anticipated this from the start

The next day, in glee , I ran off to play
Forgetting the agony from yesterday 
Built those towers, caves and castles again
Only to watch the horrifying action replay
Leaving me with the profound dismay

The reality could no longer be prevaricated
The nothingness of the sand indicated
Something way beyond the falsehood 
What was there, Despaired and dissipated 
Was not My Castle, but my faith eliminated 

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Hands

Stuck within the murky walls 
When the ceiling of despair falls
My soul cries and asks for a hand
To love, caress and answer my calls

Looking up for hours in desperation
Getting flattered by my imagination
Of seeing myself brightly illuminated
Only to find nothing but frustration 

Just a single hand is what I crave 
To pull me out of my own grave
And end the endless loop of disbelief
I dreamed of that one hand no one gave

Enough! I'm done, it's time to shine
It's hard, it's tough , but I'll be fine
There's a hand! Wait! Not one but two!
They seem familiar because they're mine 

It was a mistake I should have known 
Because I already had two of my own
Two hands were better than one
To pave a path that reaches the sun.

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लेकिन सहना पड़ेगा।
जज़्बातो को काबू में
अब रहना पड़ेगा।
आँसू जो छुपाए थे
उन्हें बेहना पड़ेगा।
चाहे कितना भी
कठिन हो लेकिन
सच कहना पड़ेगा।

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Fear Is My Name

I turn light into dark
Bring agony of such pace
That shivers your heart
And makes you lose the race
Wearing an armor of shame
Fear is my name

I shatter hopes you built
With which you see light
And turn it into guilt
So you no longer can fight
It's my favourite game
Remember, fear is my name

Your tears feed me well
Increasing my grandeur
I'm the ruler of hell
When you accept your fate
You keep alive my flame
Forget not , Fear is my name

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It's Lost

The brightness of the sun
The mirthfulness and the fun
The gaiety of the young
Suddenly started fading
Maybe, they are...
The side effects of ageing

The colours of the rainbow
The infinity of the sea
The yellow and black shade
Of a hard working bee
Does not mesmerize me
Maybe there is, something
That I am unable to see

The scattered saffron
Of the alluring daybreak
The dazzling stillness of a lake
Isn't gratifying anymore
Maybe it's my mind
That departed way before

Nobody knows
Where it's gone
But I can tell, it's lost.

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कुछ उसे भी दूरियाँ भाने लगी थी
कुछ मैंने भी वक्त मांगना छोड़ दिया था

कुछ उसे भी आने में परेशानी होने लगी थी
कुछ मैंने भी बुलाना छोड़ दिया था

बातें करने को तो एक अरसा बचा था
लेकिन सब्र की गाड़ी अब जाने लगी थी
कुछ उसे भी जल्दबाजी होने लगी थी
कुछ मैंने भी समय बिताना छोड़ दिया

अनकहे शब्द अभी और सुलझाने थे
लेकिन सुलझाना अब परेशानी सी लगने लगी थी
कुछ उसकी भी कहानियों से दिलचस्पी जाने लगी थी
कुछ मैंने भी राज़ बताना छोड़ दिया

कुछ आँसू अभी और बहाने थे
लेकिन सैलाब पहले ही उमड़ चुका था
कुछ उसने भी वादे तोड़ दिए थे
कुछ मैंने भी आस लगाना छोड़ दिया

कुछ नए रिश्ते तो अभी और जोड़ने थे
लेकिन पुराने रिश्तों की डोर अब खींचने लगी थी
कुछ उसे भी जिम्मेदारियां पुकारने लगी थी
कुछ मैंने भी पूछना छोड़ दिया

कुछ उसने भी नजरंदाज करना शुरू कर दिया
कुछ मैंने भी रूबरू कराना छोड़ दिया।

कुछ मैं भी उसे कम पहचानने लगी थी
कुछ वो भी मुझे अंजाना लगने लगा था।

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अब वजह नही है मेरे ठहरने की
फिर भी इश्क की आजमाइश करती हूं
जो जाने का खयाल तड़पाए
तो दिल को उसकी सिफारिश करती हूं ।

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