Long ago I plunged,
From the tower of your intertwined lies.
Your happiness is my suicide note.

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I lowered my expectations
To meet yours
Defined my boundaries
To understand yours
I was never a liar
But silver amongst tin
I became a sinner
To understand your sin

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I wrote to you letters
Which I could never accept or say loud afore,
But today I'll stop writing
For I don't want to lose hope while I miss your absence even more.

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Rhythm

Restless beats of my heart
Racing to your memories
Running wild in my mind
Right when I heard your voice
Recorded the day you caught me off guard by
Rambling all the thorns at me of all the
Roses I ever conspired for you.

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At the end
we all are
stardust !

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One day I'll look back and cry again
This time my eyes would beam with gratitude
Tears would sound a lovely hymn.

My heart would embrace it's pieces so far
Remembering every soul it touched-made a mark,
Spinning my head into contemplative cinema.

Maybe a bit old, mature and withered would be I
Regrets left few yet so high
When I'll look in retrospect the journey so far.

All the highs and lows, dark crevices of my life
Would fall into perspective to my surprise!
But I know I'll crave one last answer that why

I let myself live in dismay
Caring of world while keeping this heart deprived
Caging my soul in the name of fears so vile.

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As your own reflection.





As its own reflection.

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In this infinitely brief pause
My world has slowed down,
That pain has halted
But you're still a voice in my head,
Clearer than ever.
Wish I had stopped earlier,
Whispered a heartfelt goodbye
Before subduing to the rush
Of my puppet life.
Whenever I sit aloof,
Your cry fills my heart
With tears of an unkempt sorrow
To have never held your hand
In the hours,
You happily traded with pain
Direly waiting for me to return,
From my insolent Neverland.

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I no longer hate you,
For you were the
answer to my heart's
prayers back then.

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Wish one day I'm standing
with hushed thoughts
leaning over that solitary fence,
getting mirrored in that rippling water
with a pleasant shade of pale crimson overhead.
Then I'll look beside to see your smile,
bemused yet would I take your hand
letting you lead me to our abode sans regret,
drowning in your warm embrace
unaware in the moment of my last of breath.

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