Everytime I think of you,
I wish, you think about me too,
That madness, that bond we shared
Always impulsive, cause we never cared,
Those moments were real,
Now just feels so surreal,
Not that I am sad without you,
But a void keeps knocking through,
Just know that I still care and  always will,
Nothing can ever replace that feel,
You are special, was and will be,
A secret lock and only you got that key 💞

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You said over and over again
I am here for you
But then there were times,
I could never reach out
The fear of expecatations was way too much
I believed I just could not
And in those moments, reality showed up
I never accepted it as my own
Those moments felt like a mirage then
I could barely differetiate,
I was wanting reality to merge with wishes
But they both had their own conflicts
Never wanted to choose just one of it
But walking together was so not it
I still wonder, if balancing would help
I am for real but my wishes are too
Choosing one over other, is as unjust too!!

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Waiting for you to smile
Hoping for you to befriend
Wanting you to hold my hands
Wishing you to call me mine
Nothing ever came easy
I thought never mind,
There would be  a next time!

Waiting for you to come home on time
Hoping for surprise gifts
Wanting you to make me feel special
Wishing you to prioritize me
Nothing ever came easy
I thought never mind,
There would be a next time!

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I wish I could share
My wishes and my fears
The moments that made me  happy,
And the ones that brought tears
Life is good, the best it could be
But is it too bad to wish
More of smiles, just for me!
I opened up to many
In my happiness
And also when there were
Fake nods and sadness
I don't know however,
What was I hoping
Love, sympathy or just
A patient listening
But even after all this time
I keep questioning fair and square
I wish I could  just.... share!!

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If you ever choose me, know that I'm not perfect,
That admiration in your eyes though, that makes the impact
With all my rights and the wrongs,
With all my petals and the thorns,
I'm a little too good, a little too bad wont hurt though
Oh, what this crazy world would know,
You see, you hear and you sit and just judge the show,
Remember this peice of love though,
I run mine and you run your show,
Many highs and few lows,
And when you feel you have shared it all,
Be graceful and take a bow❣

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What is on my mind today?
Some happy thought or a random one,
At some point, it stopped to bother
I say I go with the flow
But seldom would it make my face glow
And then I pause, rewind and replay
I try to play better again
The life though, wont cease to surprise
If I am a hitter, it tries to give me good fight
Today although, I made peace with it,
I told life that I've learnt to deal a bit,
I would not turn down or surrender
If I was your slow student you've been my strongest tutor,
I cant let you down now, I'll keep hitting
Until one of us bowl out!!!!❣

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2010: WE NEED A BACK UP IN LIFE


2020: WE NEED A BACK UP LIFE!!!

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Dear Dreams;

Please start dieting, you are growing too fast and I don't think I can handle your weight 😂😛

Yours truly,
J

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lf you choose a working woman, you have to
accept that she cannot manage the house full
time.
If you choose a housewife who can take care
of and manage the household completely, you
need to accept that she does not make money.
lf you choose a submissive woman, you must
accept that she depends on you.
If you choose to be with a brave woman, you
must accept that she is stubborn and has her
own thoughts.
If you choose a beautiful woman, you have to
accept the expenses as well.
lf you choose to be with a great woman, you
must also accept that she is hard and firm.
No woman is perfect.
A woman has her own "good thing" that defines
who she is and makes her unique♥️

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Waking up at dawn and getting ready just on time,
Your house was my first destination, my only morning regime,
Riding on our bikes, off to school together,
And as we turn back home,  we waited to meet within an hour,
Mornings and evenings, all spent together but those moments never quite felt enough to count,
Sundays are a boon now but I cursed each one then, I swear on it now
Clock ticked and time passed, everything changed in a blink,
I speak to you once in a blue moon now and that feels like a day worth many prizes
I pray to God, to always keep you around me, with me,
You are a family outside family, no matter how, where and why, I be or You be❣

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