Even after surrounded with the people who understood ....

I still felt lonely

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I wish that no more attachments, but always ended up thinking what if, I lose the best again.

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I am so lost, in this egocentric world. I am not affluent, so I am not needed by rich , I am not a doctor, lawyer, engineer, politician, rich businessman or hold any other powerful place in this barbaric society so no one cares whether I live or die as I am no use to society. I am just a "human being" with "no benefits" to anyone. From my experience I just came to know that only being a good person is not enough to make friends, if you need to make friends you need to be very wealthy, powerful with lots of resources and contacts, and must know how to joke around and talk on monetary topics on the rocks at rich place. And if you don't have above qualities you are futile to society. Well, even our shadows leave us in darkness than what can we expect from world ? Now I really feel and understand, why I am so avoided, lonely and circumvent, first I thought I am exaggerating but now I know the actuality. Why I am writing so much when I know NO ONE CARES, OR NO ONE EVEN GOING TO READ AND RESPOND.

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If a person heals you, indirectly his/her way of love heals you

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And sometimes pain hurts terribly
It takes away all your energy
It damages your positive aurora
It takes away sleep and most importantly peace of mind
And all you will do everyday is hoping for a better tomorrow
No matter how day's change in that calendar
No matter how far you go
The pain comes with you just like sun and the moon
And after all day ends night fades and that smile on face remains same

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What's your idea of happiness?,
she asked.

"Being with you and listening to the rain falling in distance."

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Sometimes the person Who is fighting with all your demons Finds no-one To fight with his own demon...

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Demons
I see them everytime when I'm alone. They're made of different forms all staring at me. I try to escape but I can't get pass them. I feel tormented and I screams in agony. But there's no one capable of hearing me. These voices are in my head and they're driving me mad. They talk to me, they shout at me. They ruin my confidence and self esteem. It's why I just want to hide from the world. It's why I'm always in my shells cause I'm powerless. I can't fight them, they seems so powerful over me. Who can give me the ability to overpower their tortures. I need help! I need an escape route!! I'm constantly in danger and they follow me all around. They seems to love it, one minute I see them smile. They sometimes disappear like they are not there. But they stalks me everytime. They watches over me. They don't die. They're demons. They're real. They affects my way of life. They're the reason I go to bed hungry. They're the reason I'm,always under the scorching sun. They're the reason I promise myself a better life. I just need to get that one thing to annihilate them. Or else I'll drown in their terror. And if you think I'm crazy, remember you have your own demons too.

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kabhi meri tumse mulaqaat phir se ho gi
tumharay labon p ek ajnabi si muskaan ho gi
mai puchunga k sab kuch kesa chal rha ha...
aur tum muskura kar bass mujhe btaogi k sab acha ha...
khudme to mai thora khoya sa rahunga tumhen tab bhi smjhne me
aur tum meri kahani k aakhri panne ko pura karte hue kahin gayab si ho jaogi...

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اور اگر یہ کر دکھاؤ گے
سمجھ لینا مکمل ہیں
وفا کے سب تقاضے جو
مکمل کرنے لازم تھے

چلو اک سودا کرتے ہیں
چلو اک سودا کرتے ہیں

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