Why do I still staying loyal to my past?
Reading and re-reading the old chapters.
As if something or someone can break the unanswered riddle.

-24.04.25-

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Mejamu, yang di pojok ruangan itu,
memudahkanmu menyelami setiap gambaran manusia yang berlalu-lalang di hadapanmu.
Mejamu, yang di pojok ruangan itu,
memungkinkanmu untuk menarik diri dari kebisingan yang ada saat diperlukan,
memungkinkanmu untuk beristirahat dari keramaian dunia
walaupun hanya sejenak.
Mejamu, yang di pojok ruangan itu,
adalah rumah sementaramu,
saat jauh dari keluarga,
demi memperjuangkan kebebasanmu dan mereka yang kau cinta...
dari tuntutan-tuntutan dunia.

Semoga Allah selalu mampukan.
-9.4.25-

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Keep telling myself
to hold my head high,
smile and laugh at life,
hold my tears,
and stay tough.
-25.3.25-

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Sitting on my chair,
minding my own business.
-11.3.25-

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I shut my mouth
almost all the time.

But whenever you hear me shout,
believe me,
I've been kind all along
Until you cross the line.
-21.1.25-

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I sue you!
For all the broken pieces of my heart.
-3.2.25-

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Stay...
Stay wherever your heart wants to stay.
Stay...
Stay.
But if one day you want to walk away.
Please, go.
Go whenever you want to go.
I let you.
I let you, Love.
Because my love is meant to liberate you.

This is the way I love you.
-31.1.25-

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You came when I wasn't looking.
Got a full package of love (well, I thought it was)
and fear already.
Of course, it wasn't something deary.
Need to bang my head repeatedly,
but the memory lingered,
not for temporary.

Got myself caught at a very young age
with a garbage man.
Locked in a castle without doors,
only an old window
where you could see me.
You fallen for me instantly, you said.
But, I had to refuse you, bravery.
I ignored you,
pushed you,
but then there you go
it turned out you safe me.
In a blink of an eye
you free me
from tying a knot foolishly.
-27.12.24-

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She loves rainy days,
just like today
because suddenly the world goes silent.
Thus she can hear his heart beat
when she lays her head
on his chest.

She knows,
She wins the battle
Only during the day
like today.
-24.12.24-

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You would never know the hardship of continuing your life
when your world
has fall into pieces,
and the pieces have scattered under your knees,
and the yard of your home is full of dead bodies.
-"Gaza"/05.02.2024-

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