Maybe one day I will realise
That all of the thoughts simmering around
And all the steps that I didn't take
Due to a single obstacle holding me back
Known as "fear"
That stops your mind to wander further ahead
That pulls your life into the abyss of sorrow
By grabbing your hand and drag you behind
Into the maze of nostalgia
Making you ponder around in desperation
For a moment to hang on to
To provide you something familiar
Something that is long gone
A mirage of what could be
Making you forget what lies ahead
Amongst all the fairytales
All the prolonged misery
A moment of embrace
With the idea of today
Zealous for tomorrow
With life in its true form
Uncertain Unpredictable
Randomized yet Decorated
With adventures

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Cry
Just let out the pain
You've been feeling for a long time
It has grown now
It will eat you up
The whole body
Let the tears fall and crash everywhere
Let the world know that you feel
Let them feel whatever they want to
Because they have not seen
Your journey, your demise
And then how have risen from the ashes
They just saw the phoenix that came through
They don't deserve
To know the climax of your story
Maybe you felt like you're alone
Maybe the mouth was powerless
Maybe the eyes were the only place
That are able to utter the truth
Maybe that is why
You wanted to be completely honest
With your pain
So cry
Cry like an infant asking for milk from its mother
Without any words to speak
As it is justified
Because later you also need to grow
With happiness to rejoice.

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I've been thinking about the time
I met you
You were sitting behind scribbling
And you called me
Like I've never been called before
With those inviting eyes of yours
Like reality just had a glance at dream
You were there
Asking my name and I asked yours
Never before this exchange had been so natural
With faith in the intentions and generosity in reach
I was there
Wondering if this had never happened before
Like beauty suddenly shaped itself
Into a frame of you
Was I even there?
Was this even real?
Did this have to happen?
Each and every time
Your eyes meet mine
They fill themself with regret
The regret of not being with you
The regret of letting you go
Though you were never mine
They brim out the pain
And every ounce of you I have left
In me.

-MR

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Let the diyas in your path
Guide you ahead
To a new beginning

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Accept the chaos
And let the tides commence
From the shore of your conscience
Letting all the dams collapse
As they are not needed
Sail through your thoughts
And conquer all the waves
Restricting the flow of
Your life.

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Whole.

I have filled my mind with thousand thoughts
All bombarding me with the face of reality simultaneously
As I begin to write this piece off of my chest
I realize there is nothing I have left to convey
Each and every thought is converging with the path to my reality
Blinding every trail of ink that I can see towards this page
For once, I leave behind every trail, every memory
And everything that I have left to lose to once stay awake with present
As Impossible as it may seem
I, for a moment am left with all I need to be
All I could never think of or see
A whole universe.

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Sitting still on my bed
I wonder
When will the sky fall down to my knees
And plead to be vanished
In front of my eyes
As I stare into the abyss
Of my mind.
I find myself wandering everywhere
Looking for reasons to exist in this world
To wake up and not look for the things I endear
To not look for a sign from you
Or to not turn around every single time I feel that there might be a possibility of our worlds intertwining.
I ramble around
In a futile attempt of building the bricks of this shattered mind
Only to see the crumbles of hope scattered around
So I leave.
I travel all the way across the globe
Where I might get the glimpse of us
Lying around doing nothing at all
Just silence around so alluring
That I can hear my heart falling out of my chest
Just so it could breathe freely
And wander around to see
What is it that keeps me alive
The urge to feel everything
Or the curse to feel nothing.

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There felt like a moment
Where our eyes met
And you gazed into me
As if our worlds were just one
And there is nothing else to do
Except to be with each other
And breathe through our silences
Comfortable enough
To make me sleep to it.
So it would feel like a dream come true.
(An excerpt from the poem)

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If you see me bleeding
Let it cause
This will be the seeding
For the words to be chainsaws
And cut right through the pages
Of an undefined notebook
In which those words will flow
Like a brook under the blue sky
And thus will form a book
In which words will fly

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Who am I to you
Just a fortress of your kingdom of Isolation
Ready to be built upon
Just to protect you from the ambush 
Of boredom laying upon your head
Or a soldier waiting to be sent into a war
A war amongst himself
Where his voices have been urging to be unleashed
And I am too afraid to leave it all behind
Where it all began
A place where no one resides
A wasteland of my memories lying lifeless
Gasping to their last breath
Only to be recalled to remind me
How a smile felt like
How it was all of a sudden
Snatched away from my hands
Running out towards the oblivion
Just to be lost within my ignorance
Of how I could not overcome
My own fears
Laying down in the wasteland
I dream
What if happiness came without any guilt 
But I murdered with my own two hands
When I arrived at your gate
Hoping that there would be a place for me
In your castle
Where the walls were never high enough
For me to reach but low enough to make me believe
That I was welcomed there.

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