I want to talk about you
I want to speak of you every second because it fills me with you
You never know, how i am coming through.

You break me yet you lift me up
One sight at you makes me go all ramping up
I can't write anymore it's like my feelings got shut
My fingers dont follow a single word I want to utter

I am scared of dreams because they show you up
Can't feel the bliss just for a moment and then breaking all day up

I don't want to sleep, don't want to let myself go
I couldn't pull myself after all I have suffered so

I want to talk about you
You never know, how i am coming through— % &

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You know what's satisfying

When you go extra miles or do little little things in care of someone
And they
That they actually adores it, even in your hogus-bogus imperfections, feel happy about it.

And it makes you high more than anything

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रात भर बारिश सा बरसता रहा मैं
सुबह उन बूंदो में झलक रही हो तुम।

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Once my friend asked, what would be my last wish if god himself promise to grant it ?

I thought of every possible luxury a person can possess but things can't possibly fill your void.

"I wish if she was holding my face in her hands, her eyes locked with me and our heartbeats in sync"

Itna bahut h, bas iske aage aur khusi mumkin bhi h ya ni pata ni.
But does "she" exists ? She's a mystery to herself too, if only for once, just once, if she look at herself from my eyes, then she will know how special she is. That how scared i am of parting from her.

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Somebody's presence in someone's life is the gift of nature to someone.
It's a clear gift , not a prayer to be fulfilled lest kis kis ko pyar krega ya kregi wo

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It's not like there's no life without us but it's just that there remains no personal buzz

I am doing my chores, college and career stuff
But at the end of every day, i just think about us.

What's the worst fear anybody has, that what if it doesn't work out?
But the absolute nightmare is what if it does.

Let me maneuver the bond between us, u just worry about the negative case and
let me drive us to the future where it does.

Today we are even, just with opposite extents, you being negative hundred percent and i am being hopeful with positives.

Let me stay at my hundred and you just, bit by bit on your fears, keep loosing hold
Let us breed the journey in each others' arms and let miracles of life unfold.

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Today on chat, she kissed me and wanted me to kiss her back
But my obstinate desire of the real she set me ablaze by her action

For a moment, long enough,
I was shattered into pieces
I was melted into earth by this sudden fury
I wanted myself to be gone, to disappear
but
but
but not to let another blow of ordeal hit me any after

Oh my Dear Beloved, I am keeping myself pious for you
For the love of my life, I want my integrity not to break

I have tainted every reailty outside this dear small world of love of mine

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It's a long road and i am just walking down the street
earphones plugged in
listening to my favorite song

She asked which line do you like most
: "Just hold my hand, Be my girl I'll be your man.
I don't deserve this , your are just perfect"

Oh it's raining now, she knows how much i like it.

One hand is on my back and now i feel soft fingers in it.
I can smell the fragrance. I can feel the ecstacy of someone's presence.

Wait! No, are you actually saying it.
Oh my dear, I have waited years. My cheeks hurt from this smiling.
This can't be true.

Yes it isn't , said the clock besides me.

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I see a picture in mind.
I chase it
I hold it in my deepest dreams
I lock it in my greatest depths of heart

But often dream shatters with abject misery and deafening hell
And that picture in heart turns into sharp blades hurting you with every piece of it.

Then what
Time starts healing you

But again you stumble on same picture again
Now this time you are hoping that it will turn into life.

What if it didn't ?

Is it about the picture or the very person you are scared to loose who isn't there at first place?

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When a heart find the girl it loves
Boys like me seldom find the way to "together"
They seldom trick her to fall in love
Not that they aren't clever, but
They come to you and whisper.

They stand on the other side
Questioning what they feel
Scared of feelings
Judging origin of their love with the magnificence of her beauty

But when another marvellous girl , by any chance, come to them, that's when they realise
It isn't her body but her soul feeding love to them

And that's the love which, I am afraid,
Lasts Forever !💐

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