Tell me,

Why I'm scared of suddenly not existing
one day because I think no one would
come looking for me.

Why I'm scared of your "i love you's"
may be this 3 letter word meant for me
"Don't leave me alone"

Why I'm scared of living every seconds
When time is never beautiful without you in it.

So the next time you tell me how ?
I would be everything that gets to be near you,
Nearer that I will ever be?

So tell me, I'm trying to love you less?
Or is it okay to end with obvious?

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There's a blood clots all over my heart
That has blocked all the entryways.
Simply functioning, waiting to break up
Not knowing, I will never be too well
If they try to figure out a way inside
I'd stop breathing,
What difference does it makes
Still trying, still beating.

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unloved
there is no affection
seeping in to stretch
and shrink my name
and colour the vowels in.

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Invisible fear of having something
you haven't fought for
because if you never fought for it,
is it really yours?
That day, when you wake up
you realise it was kind of death
and I was forced to keep living
where there is no battlefield,
no solider, no other
but there is only me.

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internal damage is irreversible
I should be more scared of my sunken heart,
mood swings and collapsed lungs.
Instead, I think there is
something wrong with me.
To see life's ugliness and changes takes
more courage and that's makes us special.

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that my unwritten poetry
is for every person
i could have loved in
another version of my life

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follows
I was instructed to follow others
How to be like them,
where to look and where not to
I almost became an actor
I travel in others reflection
hoping that I'll find myself
in a place with no direction,
no rules, only freedom
maybe one day I won't
have to return at all.
I hope not as a shadow.

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Half love
It made my world
Shimmer for a while
And i don't know how to
make it glow longer
Maybe I ran out of
Gasoline to fuel our
Half exhausted heart?

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Damaged everywhere,
You vist those places
and say things
that I don't think,
I can ever say.
So I reach for what
has choosen to leave.

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They say love is rare, if you get a chance you've got to gather as many as you can. And I'm lucky in love because with them I'm happier. I have always had more. I have always lived in love (believe me they're so damn rare) it's been 2 years now, I met these beautiful souls, one of them hype me up to another level, other one constantly make me smile. I had the pleasure of knowing this bundle of joys. I mean just talk to them, their liveliness, cheerfulness is so contagious and inspiring. The first thing you'll notice from them is kindness, and you won't want to leave after that. If you talk with them you crappy days will become tad bit better, I promise. And I'm Feeling greatfull for having the best hooman and twin in my life. Y'all are the reason I get through each day. You both have a special place in my heart. For all that we were and all that we're going to become, all my love to you. I will always be around for you. Always!!

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