I haven't died,
Fell in love.
Lost my pain,
Not writing so much.
I never fit in here,
Or many other place's.
So I became the kingpin,
Of my future positions.
I've spent a lot of time,
In the dark night of soul.
Now, living in the moment.
No longer that fish,
Swimming into his glass bowl.

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My heart regresses into sadness
Thinking the moon is like me
Rarely able to show himself
For fear of pain and repercussions
When you die in the morning
I wonder if I should
Then it hits me
You still try your best
Showing what you can
Maybe the world isn't ready
yet for you to be fully yourself
Suns will surely be jealous
Because your light is most
beautiful

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Your pain became mine
My love became yours
Life slowly became death
I miss you became trivial
Reincarnation became pivotal

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Never equipped with love
Mother why did you choose
to be an alcoholic
Waiting for the God's to
give me a divine shove
Your pain was as powerful
as it was symbolic
Why did you let us see all
of that
Followed into your foot steps
for long enough
My displeasure for life
like a trap holding a rat
You said I love you,
Deep down calling your bluff
Although I forgive you I can't
begin to fathom or forget
Self made man with a heart
worth a million buck's
I know you must be filled
with tremendous regret
I am one with the universe,
Making my own fate and luck's
Smashing limitations which
were unfairly placed upon me
Growing one with karma
and positivity
I am a man but still you can
call me the queen bee
Not meshing with bold negativity

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I was an alcoholic mess
No sun shinning,
no baby blue
I'm hurting from the fact,
it would've been yes
I really did love you
No matter how hard I tried,
I couldn't be happy
Couldn't give you my tender heart,
Scared to be vulnerable and sappy
Now that you're gone,
I've had a fresh start
Daily attendance in
alcoholic annoymous
Please be sure to take care of
my secrets you took from me
They told me you're one of us
Now I help other's positively
pollinate there life like a bee
You will never realize you saved my life
Lossing your love awakened my soul
Unable to have you as a wife
However, no longer a fish swimming
into a microscopic bowl.

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I wish you would die
Playing me whilst taking me for a ride
Wishing upon the stars and sky
Draining of the oceans tide
Much like my splintered heart
I've given up on love
Maybe this is my new start
Giving my ego and pride a shove
It's been four year's whilst I've begun to heal
I've got to believe in beautiful new beginnings
Concrete lifted upon my heart I feel
Long gone are the shenanigans
I am a new man again
Dragging my carcus through the mud
No longer living in mental sin
I hope this love is far from a dud

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I hide the truth
Saving your sad feelings
A mother crying in a phone booth
All of my under the table dealings
Lost her son and husband
I lie to say it'll all get better
Lying when your hand is within my hand
Writing to your son a final letter

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Flowers bloom
Kindness from a far
My heart rise like a balloon
Last shot at a bar
I love watching children play
Watching the slithering of a snake
Sun rising on a beautiful day
All the fall leaves as I rake

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Busting in flames with love
Never ending
You're the one.

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Adult dreams keep a owl up at night.

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