~My Sick Heart~
Tonight I’m crying
Sitting in the dark
Thoughts are winding
with a broken heart
Catching my breath
As if Im drowned
In a river of tears
That makes me cold and numb
But then I see you
As I closed my eyes
the only clear thing I see
Out of my sight
My heart start beating
As she wants to fight
For the love that still left
A battle with fright
I know I can’t win
Even if I turned this world down
Yet Im still here loving you
With all my sick heart.....

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You're driving me crazy
Making me insane
Makes me wanna run out of nowhere
and screamed without grace......

Idiot I am, how many times you'ved said
Indeed I am with all tears that I shed....
Truly I know Im under your spell
Or perhaps its my Heart that I cant really spell...

Too sad were born in different place
In different time with different race,
But deep inside I know were not different at all
Cause Im loving you truly and Dont care at all...

Though I know that we can never be
In my dreams you're still; I ever wanted with me...
And I dont wanna wake up whenever I dreamed of you
even if in reality I know I must too....

Theres really something about you
Dont know what it is
And its making me stupid
To love you like this.......

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Sometimes I wonder
How our thoughts were combined
How together it links
and how it entwined

We do laugh together
and do crazy things around
And if times we are broken
Into the rain we cry out loud..

Together we get naughty
We Play and have fun
Screamed out of nowhere
Then we chased and run

We mocked with each other
No secrets and lies
And when life gets tough
Together we fight

You’re not just a bestfriend
But more of a family to me
And sometimes we do fight
But you never left my side

And now I am thinking
How boring my life would be
Without a bestfriend like you
who brings the best in me...

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S-ome people
H-id themselves
Y-ou’re someone,
You’re you
So nailed it! Be proud!
Never ever give space
for that word SHY....

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You make me shy, you make me blush
I always stunned when our eyes clashed
The blaze of those eyes that taunted me
It made me shy like Im not me....

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I got a male
And Then I got a mail
A male that is just blank of what i feel
So numbed to care for real

And now Im holding something
Which the latter one saying
If you only just chose me
I’ll make you my world
But now that ur gone
Whats now my life’s worth?

And then I hurried down to the north
Just to find him lying
lifeless on the couch
i knelt down and cry
Why I got so blind?
Now I loosed my bestfriend
and the man who loved me for real
And the only thing thats left in me
was just a Mail......

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Once my man asked me;
Him: R u afraid to die?
Me: No
Him: why?
Me: for I have died several times already
Him: how come?”
Me: In forms of heartaches,loss,failures and pain
For in this cruel world of reality
I have died already before i experienced the
real death.. why? R u afraid to die?
Him: actually Im not, but I’m afraid I am now
Me: why?
Him: Because i dont want to be the reason of your
another death... :)

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You’ved sculpted a SIGN in my heart
Sealed it with a kiss
And it cannot be forgotten
nor diminished in time...

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The spray of your aroma is something
That I cannot resist
The spray of its drops
that makes me dying to kiss your lips
It Made me oblivious
Yet it give me sigh of bliss
Oh baby let me cherished you
From your head down your fingertips...

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Once there was a fish living in bowl
Who wants to get free
From that stingy glass wall
And then one day her dreams
finally came true
“Ocean here I am Forever I can live with you”
And as her journey starts
Trying to explore her new world alone
Its never been easy
She wants to come back home
She weeps and she cries
And start to live alone
In a world full chaos
Of stupid shark tolls
She learns to fight to live
And then she learns to love
She find true meaning of life
Out of her broaken heart
And as she realized
how cruel world could it be
She just sigh and said to her self
“Its life and i have to live, perhaps its all worth it”

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