The grief will never pass..
The pain will never fade...
With time it will ever only change...
And for long it shall remain as an open wound..
Someday leaving a scar to remain..
As a reminder of the love you once gave...

-

Not as it seems..

Shrouded in mystery...

Tales unbeknownst that I cannot see...

Words those are hidden..

So much unspoken...

Craving just for a few conversations...

-

In the darkest of nights where the winds blow so hard..
We live in different worlds from each other far apart...
With time we may be able to see to eye to eye..
Whether we smile or together may even cry...
When with the rain that batters there will be a new beginning..
And all that was lost would only remain a memory...
I'm waiting for what I haven't seen but only can imagine..
Hoping that breaking into pieces may bring a new life in me..

-

Keeps gnawing away..
All the hopes that I had..
Dismantled and faded..

Now it's hard to take..
The very next step..
But time's flying by..
Without even a glance at the back..

What is already lost..
What already is at stake..
Will a lie for a life be better..
Than silently passing away...

-

Once you start spending time alone with yourself
You tend to become detached with everyone else
Missing out on gatherings and festivities
Or the chance to go out and try new places doesn't seem to be a bother anymore
May be this is what maturity is
What is bound to happen with the passage of time
You become a disinterested person
But sometimes the emotions within awakens
Desire to have a social life grasps onto you
Desire to have someone's presence gnaws onto you
It's not always peaceful to be alone
Sometimes you just need to let the emotions flow once more
May be now I can say..how much I need you

-

I try to squeeze in where I'm not needed..
Ignoring the reality going out of places...
Trying to be perfect and then losing somewhere..
Don't even know now who I really am...
Wished for the love that I'll never find..
I stayed true to my feelings..yet I failed why...
My mistake I tried to grasp at the wind that blew..
Forgetting that it is noone's to be claimed anew...
Neither can I control my heart..
Nor can he give me a chance...
Time has stopped at this very moment..
Can't go any further.. can't even go back...
Tears kept flowing..not knowing what to do..
And years went by waiting for you...
Steps I regret I had to take..
Thinking may be that can ease the pain...

-

I wish I could have loved you anymore..
Known the phases where I've gone wrong...
All they said was give it some time..
But all I can see is the time pass by...
Not his fault he didn't feel the same way..
But where is mine that I love him everyday...
It's not that easy to just to forget how it feels..
Some may say so..just forget him...
Give some space..I say to myself..
But what if this distance only increases...
Should I stay..wait..cry..or move on..
A constant mental dilemma I'm fighting for...
May be a long sleep will make it right..
When I wake up dreams may fly...
Well I'm trying my own way to suppress my emotions..
But why can't I still just accept I'll never reach my destination...

-

Don't know how to sugarcoat words..
Can't stay silent when something's in my mind...
Every emotion is as strong as it can get..
That's how has been my life...

Uncontrollably bawl for a broken heart..
Or when expectations are not met...
Failing to put on a facade..
That's how has been my life...

Not that I don't care..
Not that I want to hurt
Would rather hide than have a fake smile
Rather be alone for this is now my life...

-

TEMPARAMENTAL

A spark of flame..
Can take any path...
A warmth of passion..
Or destruction in wrath...
To carry this burden..
That cannot be contained...
Will either burn the ties..
Or in silence tolerate the pain...

-

TEMPARAMENTAL

A spark of flame..
Can take any path...
A warmth of passion..
Or destruction in wrath...
To carry this burden..
That cannot be contained...
Will either burn the ties..
Or in silence tolerate the pain...

-