Real ones reveal themselves in two stages: those who stand by you at your lowest, and those who stay when they have it all; the fake ones fade, forget, or forsake.

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Night, once a heaven, now yields only agony
Living through this is hard to bear
Memories haunt me, my heart's at stake
Lost in my thoughts, like a druggie, I quake.

Feels like rehab for my wounded soul
When will this pain finally lose control?
Is it the universe's intricate role?
These days I never thought I'd see.
Perhaps my subconscious should've
manifested these out of fear of losing you
Believed everything was eternal
Yet it faded swiftly
Were those moments special, or just a misread?
Were they mere fantasies, my illusions?
Should I have woken from that tender embrace?
Reality's a bitter pill
My heart aches like it weighs a ton.
Stress triggers health issues, reminding me
each second of the bitter reality
Something's wrong, my mind is constantly whispering
Music, they say, can heal wounded hearts,
But it reminds me of you, and the times we had,
and hurts me more.
You, the last I trusted, with heart and soul unfurled
I wish to slip back into those loving dreams,
But they're memories now, that couldn't be lived again
As I fade into oblivion, out of the limelight,
A forgotten soul in the depths of the night.

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How can I explain this unendurable pain?
It's killing me inch by inch each second
Something's bothering my inner peace
Perhaps anguish from the empty feeling
Seems unimaginable for a peaceful life
Wish to let go of my heavy heart
I wanna lose all my senses
Let someone show pity on me by
deleting all the good memories
I'm the one to be blamed for expecting
We shouldn't have met
An overemotional person like me
doesn't deserve to have met someone
who suppresses emotions
If I haven't known you deeper,
I would have been able to
save my heart from bleeding
Unexpectedly you came into
my dark world and showed me
a gleam of happiness
People leave when there's
no reason to stay
Trying hard to teach myself to stop
depending on the happy pills
I've been consuming for several months
Everything has an ending
Grateful to you for everything till my last breath

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I wanted you to stay
Unfortunately, you'd have to leave,
and you left
The moment I saw you leaving,
felt like someone snatched something
precious from me
Wishing to turn back time so that
I could live those beautiful moments
again with you
Missing you all the time
Missing you everywhere I go
Missing you every second
Undoubtedly, you clogged my brain
and froze my heart

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waiting for someone's change
in feelings for you who just
takes advantage of you.

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I was reaching for the desktop's mouse.
Suddenly you drew back your hand,
that's when I realized that I
accidentally touched your hand.
I felt a little embarrassed and at the same time
anxious to find that gentleman.
I glanced up at your face without getting noticed
and saw your mesmerizing eyes.
Since you wore a mask that day, I couldn't see your face.
I regained my senses and continued my programming.

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Fortunate to have known you.
Pretends like an emotionless robot
Eventually, I found you to be
the most emotional being
with a pure soul.
You're an interesting book with
infinite pages and need special keys
for decoding each line.
Your tolerance is incomparable
Being an impatient overthinker
I annoy you all the time,
but you never left
I wish you embrace happy memories
and yourself the way you are.
You amaze me every second by being a
compassionate and agreeable special soul
How could someone have both
inner and outer charm?
I'm curious to know more about
you and your thoughts
Impressed with your patience in
attentively listening to all my insanity
Grateful for reminding me I'm not that
disastrous by giving me
a little bit of your time every day
I adore you the way you are, happy pills...

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Remind me that you care for me,
at least once in a while
I'm striving hard to disguise
myself as a happy soul
It's depressing that
my existence never mattered
Your absence often drag me
to a bitter state
Magnificently you colored
my life with happiness
However, took back all those
when you departed
Plead you to gleam my life
to eternity with your infectious smile
Sleepless nights constantly exploding
my head by consuming my brain
Hopefully, you'll show up
one day to stay forever
Perhaps, that day, hope
your eyes gleam for me like mine
brimmed with unconditional love

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You left a void in my heart when you left my life
Nobody fits in the void space that belongs to you
Destiny detached us to two souls again
Unendurable as I can no longer talk about 'us'
I was never enough, that's how I accuse me
Whom to blame, my destiny or your instability?

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Truly a rare soul...
Naive and genuine
Wears a flattering smile always,
and pulls a smile on everyone's lips
Your pleasant face could gleam other's dark soul
You possess a mesmerizing voice that could drench deserts
Those fascinating conversations could boost everyone's mood
Your existence itself has the magical power to shower happiness
Incredibly talented to gleam one's inner world with music
Effortlessly occupied my mind with your real intentions
Perhaps it's a fortune to be your acquaintance
Your presence truly relieves all my anxieties
Desires your presence in my life as long as you want
Where have you been all these years, my happy pills?

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