Even the flame doesn’t burn the skin
If not in touch for a few seconds .
The why do u allow ur soul to suffer,
By holding on to the memories
That engulf your mind , extinguish.

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This love was special than
Every other love I ever had ,
Because this wasn’t my first love ,
Or me her last , but this was different,
Now I know she wasn’t the love of my life,
She was one in a million and so was this love ,
Something so rare and unite, undefinable,
something that this world would never understand or
Nor take away from , a love that can’t be bent
Or broken . She was just Love personified ❤️

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She has galaxies hidden in those
Dark circles burnt in the gaze of the
Stars covered by those entrapments...
A smudge of the hearts turned to ash
Trying to tame her love worn proudly
A boundary to be never crossed ,
Coz some love are meant
to set you free
While hers was destined
Set your soul on fire ...

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Now that I think of it
I didn’t want to be
With most of the ones
I thought I needed to be with
I just wanted what they had ,
In fact I wanted everything just
Because I had nothing ...
even now I don’t have anything ,
But now I know better , these
Blanks in my life may never fill
And I can’t keep waiting ,
It wasn’t easy throwing away
Decades of life coz it didn’t mean
anything , but I had to coz there’s
Much more to life and
That means everything...

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You may call me paranoid but I have seen things
End before it had even started , I know the pattern
But I no longer have the courage to just fall free
Even when I knew the outcomes ,
You may think I am stuck , I am indecisive,
But now I am just scared And a bit much careful...

I have seen my future self and trying my best to
Not become like that but life pushes me to a point
I can’t escape , maybe it’s all my fault , but that doesn’t
Mean I have to go through this ...

I am not scared about change I am just worried even after changing a lot there would be no difference,
Maybe I will get over this or maybe I will be stuck on
This temporal alignment forever , but all I can do now
Is to refuse to accept this dreams that are not mine...

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You talk about loneliness as
A nightmare from the past you
Try to run away but
Have you ever stood in a
Drizzle counting rain drops
Falling over you realising
Those will be the only
Touch of love
You will ever feel ?

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Dear life ,
I am sorry for all the terrible things
I gave to u in the name of unrealistic expectations ,
Sorry again no it wasn’t impossible ,
it was just basic Expectations ,
like the warmth of a hug , sweetness of a kiss ,
rush of a feeling (mutual) , but alas no ,
Sorry I wasn’t born of qualities,
Neither did I grew as the personality of perfection,
Nor did I had the chance to overcome or ignore these
Thoughts running crazy in my mind space ...
sorry I wasn’t ignorant that I wouldn’t have known about these , sorry I was innocent else I wouldn’t have been in this situation, sorry for letting u down when u needed me most , sorry for faking to be happy when only my and I knew that we were crumbling to pieces ,
Sorry for all these sleepless nights ,

Sorry that I Am not that type That moves on easily ,
Sorry that I overthink wishing I could’ve faced better if only life ( you) (or
At least me) were fair ,
Sorry that all these facts flow to me only when it’s too late , sorry that I am not even allowed to speak what I feel ,
Sorry that I am not grateful for this chance u have ,
Sorry that I am ending this too soon , (am I ?) ...

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Dear life ,
I am sorry for all the terrible things
I gave to u in the name of unrealistic expectations ,
Sorry again no it wasn’t impossible ,
it was just basic Expectations ,
like the warmth of a hug , sweetness of a kiss ,
rush of a feeling (mutual) , but alas no ,
Sorry I wasn’t born of qualities,
Neither did I grew as the personality of perfection,
Nor did I had the chance to overcome or ignore these
Thoughts running crazy in my mind space ...
sorry I wasn’t ignorant that I wouldn’t have known about these , sorry I was innocent else I wouldn’t have been in this situation, sorry for letting u down when u needed me most , sorry for faking to be happy when only my and I knew that we were crumbling to pieces ,
Sorry for all these sleepless nights ,

Sorry that I Am not that type That moves on easily ,
Sorry that I overthink wishing I could’ve faced better if only life ( you) (or
At least me) were fair ,
Sorry that all these facts flow to me only when it’s too late , sorry that I am not even allowed to speak what I feel ,
Sorry that I am not grateful for this chance u have ,
Sorry that I am ending this too soon , (am I ?) ...

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Sometimes i find it an irony ,
How people limit our love to
Their own personal versions ,
No baby our love
didn’t belong to this world ,
We weren’t supposed
to burn bright ,
For a few light years and fade away ,
I wouldn’t lie saying it
was an eternal flame Either ,
this love was natural , magical ,
A spark between two souls clashing
Causing lightnings
every second we met ,
in a way this world
Has never seen before ...

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And then I knew why I couldn’t have her ,
The force behind every step ,
Pushing me across a wild storm ,
Forcing light into my dark eyes
Dimming the sun so that I may see the stars.
A bolt of lightning carved in my heart ,
Not a random pattern but her name ,
It wasn’t love that kept me running ,
It was her and will always be ...

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