What are my achievements?
Swimming in a pool of gold
Or diving in the salty ocean
To see it's not just what the surface shows
Did I forgive but didn't forget
So I am living my past in my present
With it's ghosts
Or did I kept it in the attic of the house
I don't own anymore— % &

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Has a simple question
Made you question your existence
If I die one day
Would they cry because I made a difference
Or just because I was their legacy
Or just because they are sympathizing

what are my achievements
What did I do
Did I ever felt alive
Or just lived it through
Was I painted by them or I painted myself
Did I lie to the image in mirror
And told them what they thought was my truth

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You're the only person
I talk to
In silence....

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Waking up just to open my eyes
So I know I am still alive
Everyday I am watching the same episode
Of my life
Trying to skip the beats
To get to the song I like
But the radio plays the same song again

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If ours was a story
I would be that girl
The one among all
Till she comes
And you makes you a gentleman for her
Because everything I felt
Was a circus for your laugh

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Lost in your eyes
Like a boat in the deep blue ocean
Like a planet spinning in your galaxy
In devotion

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I don't know if this is the purpose of my life
But what I do know is this gives me purpose

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Why do I keep promises I made to everyone but myself
Just a day more I promise
Like from tomorrow I will let go all my 
Demons and be an angel that I ain't
Why my life can't be perfect
Or just seem to be
even a stranger living miles ahead
Would know how wrecked I've been
Or maybe not because all this while
I didn't even know when I act like the me
Why am here to be someone's validation
Even when I know
That is not what I am  

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Why doesn't that love yourself shit work on me
Why those self help books change everybody's life
But alienate me
Why those movies and songs
Flame the fire for 2 weeks
Why does only my room sees the real me
Why do I show I don't care
But then think about it a thousand times in my mind
Replay the tape over and over again
How I acted weird or
talked too much or
told all my secrets to a Stanger or
Couldn't  just lie

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Remember those days when I used to think
I would move out at 18
Buy a car at 19
Travel the world at 20
And live my dream life at 21
I still hope for all of it at 22

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