Try to put it at peace

Trying to move on

Trying to do better and leave

None of the bullshit I really did need

You didn't care how you hurt me

You just watched me bleed

Telling people all kinds of lies

You never were on my team

How'd you make people believe

That I was the evil one

That I was the one who deceived

When the entire time you were abusive

Things aren't always what you perceive

Never cared to really love me

Only words are words

No actions to see

Traumatized my mind

I don't even know me

Never planned to stay

Always Threatening to leave

Make me feel like I deserve this shit

Ain't got no relief

How'd I get to be so naive

He never loved me

(Please girl, believe)

He never loved me

(Please just believe)

He never loved me

Why is it so hard to really believe

That he was a thieve

None of it was ever real

He used me for his needs

Left me to deal with the grief

Fuck that loser

I don't need

That piece of shit to achieve

A life I could have only dreamed

When I felt I could finally breathe

When I only had me to only please
©leahkaye

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Dumb of me to believe he was done with it
Maybe I'm just too numb to it
He always play it off like he had put it to quits
More like she was fed up with his shit
Hes got plenty girls on his list
Guilty if the shoe fits
But he'll never admit
No telling where he could have been
Cant one girl be enough for him to call it quits
Yet hes begging me to commit?
He says he got my heart for the win
But when's the respect gonna begin?
Because all he does is him.
Selfish sins.
Now hes getting what he get.
At least with her,
she left and took his kid.
Now he got me in his place
tears streamin down his face
Seeing the empty space
They used to make love in...
Beggin me to hold him tight through the night.
I couldn't bare to watch him cry.
Who knew how much it hurt,
Watching him hurt
From pain of her dessert.
Thinking to myself
what did I do to him to deserve?
So he could feel more secure?
But I'll never be her
So when will i ever learn?
How much pain can be endured
Pain that makes me insecure
I was wrong to think that love was more than a word.
So Fuck this!
love is meant to be returned!
And my love he never should have earned!

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those innocent blue eyes
she used to be mine
almost 6 but still 5
Stuck between truth or lie
wish I could take you and hide
I always picture it in mind
cps kept you
no goodbye
I'm way behind
barely coping
no peace of mind
I'm not fine
government's design
they want us to divide
its the end of times
We see all the signs
suicide in mind
but, I have nothing to leave for you behind
just a world confined
and im scared to leave you behind
this worlds too cold and unkind
resources consumed
no room
toxic fumes
presumed so doomed
mind also too consumed
this world just a big tomb
broken promises from the womb
I swear I'd keep you safe I presumed
they accused
then removed
no closure for your wounds
no reaching hand to soothe

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They say your first love is your father
And that is the kind of man
you'll search for 
I guess I was taught early
By my father 
That my body was for others
For there own evil selfish pleasures
Take is what they do
I'm almost 32 
And I still lay in bed with different lovers in the shape of the devil himself. 

Go figure.

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His eyes
Hazel Green,
Who knew
The evil
Lurking within.
Entitled predator.
Destroying heart's.
Seducing lovers.
Young and old.
No care.
No soul.
He'll say,
"I love you."
To anyone
That does not
Love themselves...

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