I was shed in blood
Torn apart from the pelvic
The pain I couldn't speak about before I could process it,
my soul had left my body when touched, clenched and gripped by those vultures of mankind
without my permission to please their needs of lust,
those walls of the hospital ,
where I cured hundreds of people
And their blessings
couldn't help me because humanity was dead only the flesh eaters,
Terribly with no shame in their eyes piercing my naked body.
I could see humans turning into the devil that night,
my white uniform stained in blood
that night proved that "saviours can also not be saved"
when humans change their form towards flesh eating animals may be animals would have left me that day but those humans ate me alive.

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Has your heart ever talked to you?
The things you don't want to listen to because the world isn't acceptable towards the emotions you feel.
That strange rush in your mind
That strange feeling
That restlessness of feeling completely observed in the moment and yet segregated.
The feeling that keeps the metabolism of your heart rate to beat a little faster than before.
The rush in your veins the feeling of holding onto someone.
The feeling of forever ❤️
The feeling of completeness
Wondering if it's wrong to get carried away by the emotions or to give up because acceptance from the world is a necessity.

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One person can heal,
One moment can keep you away from all the chaos inside you.
Don't let the seregation draw you back from loving a person in your mind.
It's okay to hold some one in memories and cherish the moment.
Life is all about exploring and sometimes your heart opens up for some moment to behold but the mind knows how let go makes easy.
How releasing it gives the tears of joy and happiness of be holding their memories forever in eyes.

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Love is never uneasy.
Love doesn't have to make you feel alone.
There's a probability of not being loved the way you deserve is when you know something doesn't feel right.
Something is missing.
Something never changes even with time.
The feeling of not being able to express yourself and holding back, confusion comes when the love isn't right for you.

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"The world benefits from you"
A note:
"People know whom to respect and whom to contact,
I repeat, " people know whom to respect and whom to contact",
the only irony is that if you are rich and hold Power everyone is yours".

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I am broken and healed at the same time.
I am better and good at the same time.
I allow myself to live and this time i am precautious
because this version of me has nothing to lose further.
I gave and i emptied myself for the one i was down from day 1.
I gave him my best and all i could receive was not enough to make me believe that love could be beautiful anymore.
I decide to cut the ties and with a good note i leave him
with a happy heart ,
i wish for his well being and all i could do may not be enough for you.
But maybe the broken me now knows i did all i could to be a part of you but all i could do was walk out in pieces.
I allow you to leave me and i now heal my heart with love ,empathy and kindness because i choose to stay myself and consume only filtered emotions which are going to vibe with me.

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Mera u Phone ko baar baar check
karne se
kya mujhe uski yaadon se Rahat milegi ?
Fir kyoun meh bar bar us phone ko dekh
dil k jhakhmo ko dimag Tak pahuchne se rokti hu?
Kyoun tanhai meh bhi shor sa hai,
Kyoun Dil k jazbaat mujhse Chikh-chikh kar
ye kehti hai ki chor kar wo Jaa Chuka
fir bhi dil ko aash hai lagi..

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Loving someone is beautiful but being blind not seeing your self-esteem dropping down in your own eyes is not love.
Love is never suffocating
Love is never confusing
Either you know it is what it is or you will always remain confused.
And that's not love that's toxic.
So stop embarrassing yourself and living in the same repeated pattern when you have nothing to communicate but only useless arguments that prick like thorns and words cutting deep down into your soul.
Walk out and release!
how toxic you have become!
Just breathe and give yourself the love you searched for in the wrong person.

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Tu gaya bhi apni marji se tha,

Tu Laut aaya wapas bhi apni marji se!
Tera u aana-jana laga raha kahi dafa...

Magar abki bar jo Gaye ho,
Laut kar wapas aana mat,

Kyoun ki ab ye dil ijajat nahi deta,
tujhe dilagi karne ki.

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A lot of things running in my mind
Chaos is all inside me.
I perfectly pretend not to seem unhappy but the chaos inside me speaks louder than i do.
Well solitude is all i crave for but god's grace shines all over me.
He abides with me everywhere.
I know it takes time for things to happen and settle on its own.

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