I know it was not meant to be I knew it from the beginning but I stayed quiet because I thought I would regret if I didnt give a chance to check if its meant to be
Now that I gave a chance I realized I didnt lose I was right to know it from beginning
Because there was nothing to lose— % &-
I never knew I am gonna feel this alone in a world of 7,874,965,825 people .....surrounded by such population I still feel invisible
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I wish.... atleast I had one to rely on to hear me ,understand me irrespective of my words and be there for me forever I wish.....
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The only person who loved me valued me is my grand mom.
Without expectations
Without knowing my abilities
Not asking for validation ,worth or my value,or never asked me to prove myself
She trusted me more than any and me myself
She always felt me special
Able,to be kept safe,valuable,worthy more
I dont know why or what she saw in me there is no one again who is gonna love me like her know me like her....
I was always a step ahead compared to everyone in my family for her-
If pain in my silence can talk ,it may take beyond your life time
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I dream every night as if someone is pulling you away from me I will try so hard to hold you and not to lose you but then I will fail again as I scream in fear it reminds me it was my traumatic dream but its a killing reality i have to face if I am awake its a fear ful trauma I have to fight every night as I sleep .
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I hear you taking my name ,I hear you calling me but when I look around you are no where
Saying I miss you is nothing its beyond just mere missing its beyond pain beyond life
Something I have to bear all along for the rest
I have waited months thinking if I go hunger strike you might come to feed me like always
I screamed and cried in darkness every day and night thinking you could hear me
Its been 3 months day by day keeps passing but life isnt moving .i am stuck .we are stuck .y u? Y this?
I am just a question mark with no answers who lost all the hope have no more people or trust left you took it all .all the little reason left for me to live
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Nights dont let you sleep
Days dont feel to wake again
Life doesn't let you live
Dont know what to think,
whom to talk,
What to do ,
And where to go
I was never this blank maa
Meri maa, pyaari maa
I wanna be invisible,untouched,unheard
I am running away , may be in search of you,how far can I ,how long will it take for me to find you.
Mind doesnt accept and heart finds it hard to forget
What can I do when I lost everything all the little left for me along with you-