I am trying to be strong
Or am I just pretending to be

You are trying your best
But I am genuinely not happy

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Can I please have me back again
The me before it all happened
When I didn't had to smile my pain away
Or cry at the smallest thought of you

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I don't love you anymore
But then how do I explain this desperation
The constant urge of contacting you
Even after years of our last words of separation

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You leaving me
Didn't bought the pain of loosing you
But the harsh truth
Of you never actually being mine
Will haunt my past throughout my future

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When I stood against the storm
I though how strong I am
Against all the wind and thunder

But then something reminded me of you
And I realized how vulnerable I can be

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I realised my importance
When you were too busy for me
But had time for others

I realised my worth
When you achieved something
And called them first

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Everynight I come here
And silently write down
Whatever I want to scream out

Because ultimately
Only I know what it is
And no one else will get it

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You broke me and i used those pieces to build you
I wanted to build you up and you just wanted to break me down

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I can listen to my footsteps
Walking away from you

The street is dark

I can clench my chest tightly
While crying for you

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And after it I was blank and confused
But suddenly everything was crystal clear

It never was mine but I had hopes to get it someday
It never was there but I thought it will just appear somehow

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