You'll find me in the coffee shop, contemplating if i'll ever be good enough.
You'll find me at the bookstore on the corner of a small town street, living vicariously through stories resting on dusty shelves.
You'll find me in the back of the class, trying hard not to take up too much space.
You'll find me alone, roaming the empty hallways. for i am always in the wrong place.
You'll find me apologizing for everything and stumbling over my words.
You'll find me in a fading memory because i am never the first thing on somebody's mind.
You'll find me searching for more in this life.
You'll find me hidden between the cracks and crevices of a broken mosaic, because i will never be the masterpiece you so desperately crave. someday,
You'll find me somewhere far away. one day may be not on earth.
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The Chaos in me, make people think I'm insane
Instead they never see the pain and I'm sick enough
I just might lose all again.
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Tied my legs with shackles
Bounding with Hundred stories,
You are the light,
You are the colourful flying Kite.
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You Thought about me,
I Did that too,
being so protective,
we haven't shared each other feelings,
and it affected our relationship though.
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I try to be patient and i think, I have learnt from other mistakes,But sometimes i feel like I might explode in anger and rage But i don't want you to be afraid. So,please try and stop me.
See, i have quite a temper I think i got it from my father. Instead i will try to hide with smile that looks anything but real and i will insist that I'm okay, when I'm not.
I'm afraid, you will never love me, because loving and losing is something i can't bear again and i think that when it happens so often you start loosing faith.
So, I just wanted to apologize in advance for the fact that i usually don't sleep until about 4'O clock in the morning and often lay awake, staring at the ceiling and lot of time i will cry but i don't.
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I'm good for a while
i talk more, Laugh Loud
Eat and play normally
and suddenly something happens
like some sort of Switch turn off
and all i'm left with Darkness in my mind
every time it feels like i sink
more deeper into it
and I'm scared
what if someday
i won't make back to normal life
and stuck in Darkness's
i feel I'm fainting now
screaming someone to help
but every one just look at me
with confused faces
wondering what I'm struggling over
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Travel with those with whom you,
Enjoy and explore the most,
Rather than just travelling for Instagram Pictures, Snapchat stories and Facebook Check inns.
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Depression isnt always
that boy addicted to alcohol or
the girl that's crying in the bathroom,
it isnt always suicidal notes or pill bottels
Sometimes,
its the smiles
and good grades.
sometimes its the boy
that always helpful
and the girl that you always
borrow things from.
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I usually dont let my life problems Aired,
To me, on that night it didn't matter if anyone cared,
So, I decided to take pills,
In order to end this life ill's.
My mission was to stay permanently asleep,
All they did was help me to sleep long and deep.
Everyone think that i'm Tough,
I can't deal with so much stuff
I think to deal with life is Fuckin rough.
The very next morning my friends came to support,
They were not as many to report.
The one who did were true,
And with Others there is no difference in our relationship too.
It doesnt mean i'm weak and wanted to seek attention,
Ending my life was the best option that i thought, I could seek.
i will take this F*, Because my mission did fail.
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I Burned all the photos you left in my Phone in the hope of erasing the existence of every memory we had, But no smoke can ever replace how much i know your smell that musky fragrance, which i can distinguish from the rest of the people, Nobody i tell you, i breathe you in and filled my alveolar space. And now that i want you out of my system, which you made a mark in every way possible, even my brain has grown in fond of you, that it made me want to save the burning photos or letting myself catch the fire with them. But i stood there watching my memories burn, remembering your smell and our time together at college, park, restaurant and my bedroom.
I wish i could have deleted your photos one last time.
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