Signs of Narcissistic Abuse
Victims hide after discard, go off the grid, keep to themselves; while the narc has fully smeared them to anyone who will listen and has already moved on.
Victims can be emotionally unstable, Quick to cry, quick to anger, depressed, very needy, may seem like they are BPD. Victims tend to seem paranoid and for good reason, likely to have changed phone numbers, addresses, bank accounts. Narcs are always looking for ways to mess with their victims/ get even.Victims are very jumpy, Victims don’t trust anyone’s intentions, Always analyzing looking for the next demon in disguise. Even people they’ve known forever. When a victim is ready to talk about it, They’ll likely be angry. If you believed the Narc early on without reaching out to the victim, you might be a target of that anger. Rightfully so. The phrase “two sides to every story” WILL LIKELY SET THEM OFF! especially if you haven’t heard theirs. It makes you a hypocrite. Don’t say it. Ever.
Victims develop sleep disorders/insomnia/parasomnia. It’s all part of the CPTSD.-
Why is it so hard to forget you? I never meant anything to you. It was all fun and games to you. You knew how I felt and still played with me. I told you about the lil one. You chose to not reply. I told you about the procedure and asked you to be by my side. You made excuses. Everyone was all for you. I bet against you. You haven’t even checked on to see how your child is progressing. You said you wanted your family and that is why you did what you did. I offered to be your family when she no longer wanted you, because she found out about me. I didn’t know you were lying the whole time about her. Even after finding out I still loved you and wanted to give you the world. I was just a game for you. I never want your son to act like you. I also never want to let you meet your son once he enters this cold and nasty world. I want to say I hate you, but the sad thing is even after you destroyed my world I still love you and want you by my side.
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I’m sorry I canceled today.
I know I said I forgot I had something to do, But I didn’t know how to tell you that I didn’t want to wake up this morning.
I know I said I had to go somewhere, But I didn’t know how to tell you that I was writing my kids a letter to say goodbye.
I’m sorry I canceled today.
I know I said I wasn’t feeling well, But I didn’t know how to tell you that I’ve spent the last five hours crying on the closet floor.
I’m so sorry I canceled today, But I didn’t know how to tell you that I just don’t have the energy to pretend anymore, and didn’t know how to tell you that if I saw you, I’d just cry.
I’m truly so sorry I canceled today. I know I said my kids were coming, But I didn’t know how to tell you that if you asked me what was wrong, I wouldn’t have the answer, and didn’t know how to tell you that I can’t stand for you to see me like this.
I hope you understand how sorry I am that I canceled today. I know I said I had to help my friend with something, But I didn’t know how to tell you that I’m calling the crisis line, and I know I didn’t answer your call, But I didn’t know how to tell you that I feel like I can’t do this anymore and just know I’m sorry.-
That moment when you feel something weird in the air. Then you start sneezing and having a runny nose. You feel like someone has the Rona that is around you. You don’t know how, but you feel it.
Two days later the male roommate sticks his head out and says I’m sorry. I can’t taste or smell anything and my lungs hurt so bad when I breathe.
Inside you’re panicking, but you don’t want to make him feel bad. So you hide it and start sweeping the floors and getting every disinfectant that there is out and start spraying. Just spraying everything even if it can’t live on it. Wtf do I do now? I can’t do this.
I’m already ass out. I don’t have a job, there’s no way I can do what I was going to so I can pay the whole rent. I guess 2020 still has more in store for me.-
Shoulda, coulda, woulda all over and done. No more what coulda been, shoulda been, woulda been. It’s all now and what will be. Focus is all on gaining knowledge, becoming one with myself, and facing anything that comes at me head on. I am a warrior, a survivor, a soul searcher. Spirit, I surrender I give it all up and take back my power from anyone and anything that I have given it to or when it was taken from me. Guide me where I need to be and show me peace, patience and virtue.
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It wasn’t like I expected. I felt an unusual calmness. It felt like home just hearing your voice. All my doubts and fears were gone for small moment. All your sarcastic answers, you make me smile when all I wanted was to cry. You said you don’t see it happening. I wanted to say I need you, i couldn’t.Im strong enough to make it on my own, I need a partner in crime tho. The pull I feel is scary. I say I only wanna blank. I want you to always be honest. No more secrets. You were my best friend. I told you everything. I trusted you blindly and you led me into a dark pit to die from the pain of my shattered soul. You wanna say they are all like that, I don’t care about them. My soul aches for you. I want to move on. Ive tried. It always comes back to you. What is wrong with me? I should want to stay far away from you. You can’t blame it all on the d. I know you’re hurting, i feel it, but you cover it up and It’s like I’m the one feeling it all for both of us. You cover it up with sarcasm and trying to be mean. Like i said I don’t care about them. I just it back. Except with all truths. No bullshit. Just you no rules, you be you and me be me. I still have to answer tonight. I love you
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silent tears streaming down my face. You promised to never hurt me or give up on me when in fact you never really cared. You ripped my heart & soul out. I don’t want to go on. I’m so confused I love you & I hate you. I want what you promised. Why can’t I leave you alone? I would give you another chance knowing it would all be lies, but to be in your arms again is something I crave. What will I tell this child? You don’t care about the life that we created. You haven’t said a word. This child deserves more. I have to let go of you even if it kills me.
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I was put in your life to serve you justice. What you wanted backfired. I dodged that bullet. My guides got my back. I’m so protected and at peace. I’m learning to embrace my energy and do as the universe asks.
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I would have given you the world, hell I already was. I thought you were the one. The cards said you were the one. You never cared, you made me feel insecure and would blow me off. I let you go, I wanted you back. You blew me off. Now I have left you alone. Yes I have moved on. I am putting the pieces back together. The cards say you’re coming back and you’re sorry. I am gonna blow you off.
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You pushed me down and thought I couldn’t get up. You thought you had destroyed me. I called after you to please help me up. You shoved me down again and walked away. With tears in my eyes and my heart shattered a roar like no other emerged. I not only got up I ran past you and waved.
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